So many times have I been so afraid

why am I here

2011-11-16T20:59:00.002+08:00

Heeehaw! Kinda lazy to upload pictures, soooo its just gonna be a wordy post (:

Was super excited for wednesday and I am actually early in meeting yaani and jessica :P Wait, yaani was actually 30mins early *facepalm* Can never understands her LOLOL Headed down to town and did some shopping, shall elaborate next time. All in all a happy day cause I love all the things that I bought :P

Met up with Jessica today morning and cant find my stupid keys. Took me 15mins to find it.... UNDER THE BED. Seriously keys?! You think you monster ah, or playing hide and seek *shakes head* Headed to school and helped with grad night stuffs. Not much actually. Oh and as usual we started to play volleyball LOL For awhile though, cause we still have to get some stuff from khatib central. Bought my handphone battery and changed my protector :D Happy girl! Headed home after finding other stuffs. Stupid cramp has been haunting me the whole day, damn pekchek. And my throat feels disgusting D: Hope I will be fine before Sunday!

We could have had it all

2011-11-14T21:40:00.002+08:00

Pictures from our Bukit Timah Hill climb! (:

Today morning met up with Fencer Roo and headed to school to help up with graduation night stuffs (: Had to dabao lunch and rush through it cause its almost time for our leadership workshop

I find it quite fun having this workshop cause together with chungcheng main ppl and we're so much more bonded and totally like good friends all together :D Had our beep test and sadly I didnt improve much. Gotten an 8.6 . Could have continued but my stomach hurts and ankle feels weird LOLOL and nobody running with me already so I decided to stop :P

Off to ssc with Jessica to get my camp stuffs again, and saw Ms Serena Tan and her boyfriend (most probably) ! HAHAHA Went to look at the hamster and I swear one of them is zi bi! LOL SHO CUTE! Cant wait for tomorrow! Shopping with crazy asses bitches Yaaaaaani and Jessica :D

Whisper your name to my heart, to forever remember you

2011-11-13T17:01:00.002+08:00

Aloha! Its like Sunday already and tmr's monday, then tuesday then blah blah blah and my holidays will be over :( LIKE SO FAST Sigh, anw yesterday went to climb the bukit timah hill in the early morning. It was quite easy actually (: And i really love my group, we came up with nice and cute cheers within 15 mins! HEH

Went to prata house afterwards to nom on some delicious prata and of course my all time favourite maggi goreng :D But it had to spoil the happy mood and start raining sheeps and cows, had to run in the rain to get to the busstop opposite. Freezing my ass off! But the bus ride was nice cause I was sleeping super soundly and I almost missed my stop xD Ninjaed again at home and off to ballet (:

Told Ms M i would be missing class for 2 weeks cause I am going to Nepal. And she said she went Nepal too many years ago and even gave me some advice HEH Totally love her. Met up with Yuyuan jiejie (Dajie's best friend) and her fiance and cinyee for dinner. Yeap they treated us Swensens as a thankyou dinner for helping them perform (: Totally not awkward at all cause we had engaging topics bout dance :D Sho happy! Bused home with cinyee and talked about our experience with accidents and tragic stuffs D:

Today morning met up with huishan and jiaenn at ssc to buy stuffs for their OBS and my nepal trip. Went to find dad and sisters to get present for my two year old cousin. Couldnt decide on anything so daddy just took an angry bird and say that will do. I AMMA SO JEALOUS! LOLOL As usual went to ahma house and played with cousins, and the 2month old baby cousin is so cute! *swoons* She keep uhm chio-ing to herself HEHEHE Gonna go airport to fetch mum later so here I am blogging (: Still havent buy my dress yet >:(

If I were a boy

2011-11-11T22:05:00.005+08:00

THATS MY AWESOME NEPAL GROUP! :D Filled with fun and crazy people! Dont mind spending 10 whole days with them! HEHEHEHEHE Going bukit timah hill tmr morning for training! Really cant wait for Nepal trip :D

Okay back to topic.

PHYSICS SPA (DONE)

CHINESE O LEVEL (DONE)

CHEMISTRY SPA (DONE)

HERE COMES MY HOLIDAY!!! OMFG SO HAPPY LIKE FINALLY!

*Breathe in breathe out* chemistry spa was today, quite fun actually. Finished in like half an hour and Mrs Choo gave me a pedo smile when she announced that there's still half an hour left and saw me looking at her LOL She sho cute! Anw to celebrate the start of no school, we went to pop champanges (: Fat hope, just went to northpoint for dessert HEH. Was talking bout awkward topics and random stuff, but we're all happy :D

Went home and took a pathetic 20mins nap and had to ninja in order to be on time to meet Crystal! Wanted to go to Old school delights but it looked as if its gonna rain hippopotamus and rhinos, so went pizza hut instead. As usual you can never get bored hearing her life stories LOLOL AND FINALLY WENT FOR CLASS AFTER ONE WEEK! Super happy :DDDDD Felt like all my fats finally exercised and moved. Or it will be jingling when you see me. AND I swear my butt and thighs grew bigger. WAHLAO DAMN DEPRESSING LAH :'( *hide in one corner and cry*

HUHUHUHU Had performance at UCC on Thursday. Morning took my chinese o level. It was okay, but I scared they moderate moderate until my results become sucky :( Back to performance.. yeap another throw-face moment but great experience uh. Hope I dont have to perform anything like this anymore. Seriously hope laoshi can choreograph some nice contemporary dance or nice hiphoppy kind! OH and I saw Sarah Cheng Meimei at the performance too! So sad she stopped dancing at my ballet school already, she's as usual preettty!! And she recognized me (: Falalalalala sat at the corridor alone like a lonely soul cause I have to wait for the finale and others went to watch the concert :( Sad life.

Wednesday had physics spa, it was okayyy I guess, hope I dont get lower than 7 marks TT Off to UCC for rehearsal afterwards, kinda boring cause I have to study for chinese for the next day :( Tuesday was physics lecture. The lecture theatre's screen fell off! LIKE SERIOUSLY?! HAAHHA Make Mr Lee so flustered and stuff. But the screen like a legendary~ All of us waiting for its fall, still countdown somemore! (Y) Went pengting house after and had our lunch, then borrowed her fleece jacket :D SORRREH for making you move all your stuff out! EHEH

Okie gonna go bathe then sleep early! OH ITS 11 11 11 TODAY! May everybody's wish come true! :D Hope the fairies and their magical dust do their jobs today and make the whole world happie!

Wherever you are, I believed the heart does go on

2011-11-08T19:00:00.002+08:00

Basically I havent been blogging cause I dont feel a need to. I mean, whats so interesting bout school life and more boring school life? Anyway, Friday was the last day of our extended curriculum programme, yeap so guess what. Awesome 3G came up with a farewell part for our beloved Ms Trixie Lim!

All in all it was really fun and amazing. OH and here's Arif's be-yooooou-tiiiii-ful poem for Ms Lim! MUST READ HOR:

News spread that you were leaving,

Our jaws dropped and we were grieving,

We really did not want you to go,

To somewhere else that we will never know.

We wanted confirmation so we waited for you,

Wondering if the rumours were really true,

First you held back and didnt gave an answer,

But then you uttered the words saying later.

So we waited longer till the next day,

To await your answer if you would stay,

Then you walked into the class,

Our hearts froze like solid glass.

First you hesitated then you started to tear,

Then we knew it was something not good to hear,

You then explained why you had to leave,

And then our hearts slowly started to ease.

Tears welled up in your crystal eyes,

And we were letting out our silent cries,

Your words comfort our very petite hearts,

But we never wanted you to be apart.

The sadness you expressed could be clearly felt,

And our hearts slowly started to melt,

Your pain that you kept so long became our pain,

As we did not want you to go in vain.

We eventually had to accept and understand,

That this would not be the very end,

This isn't the last of our intangible bond,

It was much more and definitely far beyond.

Alas you were the best teacher we ever had,

And we should move on ahead and be glad,

That you were those who would go the extra mile,

And taught us that life is always made better with a smile.

Ah well, good things always comes to an end. BUT we will always remember Ms Lim and her teaching :') Went off to meeting for S1OC then its nepal training. Dayum i tell you my stamina is deproving and my flexibility is like cow dung :( Need to exercise and stretch everyday already, sighhhh. Had dinner at pastamania with usual people and home! NEXT DAY...

THE QUEST!

Was seriously eggcited bout it cause its like the first amazing race I had participated in. But guess what, disappointing! :( Had to wake up hell early and reached chinese garden. Then they started so dang late, and everyone ran like xiao ding dong when the race officially start. So our first stop was Labrador Park. ARGH got down at Labrador park station and had to walk like 2.4km?! To reach our destination. AND WE WERE SO LUCKY our first stop, we had to get flour all over our face ... pffffftttt Jessica had the worst encounter actually cause her flour was all hard HEHE THEN our next stop, Hort Park -___- Actually hort park was still okay cause we were smart and took a bus down instead of walking.

Worst destination. Telok Blangha Hill. I mean seriously, my whole life I have never heard of that hill before. And this very helpful bus driver made us alight at the wrong stop -.- Then this passerby gave us wrong info and we ended up in Mount Faber Park ..... Me and pengting were seriously super pissed off already cause we had to climb like 5 storeys up to mount faber, then down again. And when we reached TBH, its uphill and then another 4 flight of stairs.. *FACEPALM* Basically our route were almost the same after pit stop at SMU. Unlucky Kelvin go pick our next destination TBH! And our station is so stupid. He had to wear this pantyhose over his head and swing it in order to hit all the cans on the table with the tennis ball. Were laughing like mad! Go facebook for his video! Well, one happy thing is that we got free entrance to Escape theme park! :D

Yeap nobody from our school won, but Jieying got third prize for lucky draw! Lucky her (: After the whole thing ended, our first stop was the Haunted House HAHAAHHAAH. Super epic experience. There's like 8 girls and brave Rebekah sacrificed herself and decided to go first. Then Javier decided to be a kind hearted soul and accompany us. Before we even step in, all of us started screaming already HEHEHEHEH. Then at some point in the middle of the route, Javier said " EH cannot go already, no route!" Then we started screaming again and I was really scared we're stuck LOL And Joscelin accidently slapped a stranger cause he was scaring us. HAH FINALLY we were out of that horrible house. Friends outside were saying that the whole house was shaking from our screams. FUN! :DD Viking ship was fun too cause many cchy-ians were on the ride together (: Too bad I had to go cause its like 7.30pm and daddy is coming to fetch me. Great experience indeed!

Falalalala. Sunday and Monday was stay home day, so didnt really do anything much, just pack some stuffs and failed to revise for chinese. Had physics lecture today and went pengting house after to borrow her fleece jacket (: Had our lunch and surfed the net. Were contemplating to commit suicide cause what have we been doing to our lives?! Look at all these young performers that are so talented! NEED TO REFLECT ON OURSELVES ALREADY AH.

X Factor Rachel Crow 13 years old only!

X Factor Drew, only 14 years old!

Sungha Jung 15 years old!

There are actually more talented youngsters but these are the few we seen today. SIGH i am so depressed now :(

Wasted youth

2011-11-02T17:11:00.005+08:00

ALOHA! I am finally back! Yea baby I know you miss me alot (: Well its been a hectic semester this year. Endofyear are finally over! Yeap as usual didnt do very well, sighhh.. Wait, not all exams are over. Next week there's still physics and chemistry spa and O lvl chinese D: DANG IT

This week practically stayed back everyday to go for meetings to finish up camp proposals and stuff, sigh finally resting today. Emotional geography lesson with Ms Trixie Lim just now. Nope, geography cant be emotional, its the fact that she's leaving us next year...

Yea I cried, mostly because we'll be losing a wonderful teacher. She's the only teacher that really truly believes in our class and never ever once looked down us. She's the only teacher that really knows what we feel, how we feel, and treat us all equally. I know its selfish to want her to stay for us, but... sighhhhhh I know she has her own difficulties too. I mean who would want to stop teaching us adorable kids right?

Mr Lee aint gonna teacher us physics for term one either, yea our form teacher, and ms lim is our co-form. I bet his one term is gonna become one year. I know its not this way, but I really feel like they are all abandoning us. Like treating us as their kids, then suddenly throwing us on the roadside like some unwanted animals. Then there's Ms Lin who constantly never fails to let us know what a failure class we are and constantly threatening to not take us next year. Oh well then, nothing much to say. Then there are people saying Mr chang wants to further his studies, so there goes our chemistry teacher as well. What wonderful teachers we have indeed. They said 3G'11 have most of the best teachers. Yeap but 4G'12? Hah joke.

Well, cant totally blame the teachers either. I mean, we really disappoint them. But I didnt expect all to come together to give us such huge new. Its like being shot continuously. Enough of this, totally not looking forward to next year.

At least something to look forward to, super excited for nepal trip! Its like, only in two weeks time?! Wow time flies. Still remember in sec one looking at the nepal trip video and swearing to myself that I will be one of them when i am in sec three (: And before nepal there's the 2011 grad night. Hope its gonna be a successful one. Then there's SC camp and Dance camp. Gonna try to update everyday since holidays are coming, so stay tune kay! Love you to bits and pieces (:

2011-11-01T20:18:00.003+08:00

Hi I am finally back after 2 freaking months. And yes, I am gonna start blogging... After I finish my homework :P I know you miss me

It started like before

2011-09-14T14:36:00.002+08:00

SCHOOL STARTED :(
Duh isnt it obvious from the lack of update. Well dont even think I will have the time to on my laptoppy, siennnn will update whenever there's time! Promise (: currently on a lonely bus ride cause I left my storybook in school and earpiece at home, sighhhh. Since school started, never ever had a good night sleep at all, the most I slept each day is like 5hours or less. Kay at least I did my homework, gotta start revising when I get home, must! Gonna go play candles later at night. Yea I know mid autumn is over, but everybody's busy! Hope the rain stop by 430 (: cant wait for my lunch at home! Stomach growling TT

Sick of all the insincere

2011-09-02T23:33:00.004+08:00

HAPPY TEACHERS DAY 2011!

Hoped cchy students and teachers had a great time, many people really put their effort into planning the whole day activities. Thursday school celebrated teachers day. Was suppose to help Jessica and walk around helping those with problems. Ended up at the Caterpillar station LOL Dont mind cause Fengting and Jiaenn were there (: I LIKE OUR COHORT (Y) Its like the most cooperative one :D Dayum sec twos and sec ones that made me lose my temper. Especially sec twos, ended up shouting at them -.- And I hate to shout in front of teachers, but I cant control its RAWR I NEED TO SHOUT LESSER.

Had to rush up to MPH for acers. Stupid Aqmal pisses me off! Gave him attitude LOL I super kaopei I tell you xD Wanted to faint during acers due to lack of food and over using of energy and stupid scorching sun in the field during Caterpillar. Lost my temper again and sort of scolded some SCs for being inefficient ._. But seriously? People on stage keep asking you to come up and you over there talk talk talk like no one's business. I had to come down to INVITE you up then you're willing to move. Is this the right attitude and behaviour of a student councilor? I know I shouldnt lose my temper but HEY I AM TIRED and YOU ARE PISSING ME OFF okay *breathe in breathe out*

Had to rush down AGAIN to get prepared for teachers day performance. Changed in the LT behind the curtains LOL Yeap i was trained to change quick and without being seen yo. Then rush to the backstage to give sec two councilors support. HAHA I think they did well (: And some are damn cute :D Was very happy for international dance's performance :D Had good response and comments from people and the video is quite nice too GO WATCH!

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=272921789387690&comments

After the whole concert RUSH again to sc room to finish up teachers day present with Jiaenn. Gave to the teachers and home (: Tiring day! Evening went down to northpoint to buy present for Aunty May, cost me 24 bucks :( So expensive. But for her I dont mind uh (: I wanna buy one for myself too! Mini gold plated piano (Y) Damn chio.

Today's the start of HOLIDAYS! WOOHOO though its only a week but better than nothing! Woke up at 11 and packed some of my clothes LOL Trying very hard to play the piano piece for Secrets by One republic. It think english songs are harder to play then chinese songs. Bused down to tp for ballet. FINALLY! One week of no ballet makes me feel damn fat. Its like fats growing everywhere. Good to dance it out today (: Too bad cant go for 4 hour class tmr cause going for thankyou party for ndp at Concord Hotel. Hope its gonna be fun.

2011-08-31T23:05:00.003+08:00

Common test 2 results are back.

Emaths, Geography, Social studies, English Literature -A1

Amaths, Physics -B4

Chemistry -F9

Sigh, sucky results. A1 doesnt seem that nice when you got an F9 for a subject. Both language results not confirm yet. I will do well for chemistry in EOY. I do what I promise. I will. Physics was such a disappointment, was expecting an A2. Amaths erm, wanted an A2 too, but oh well, at least I improved. I am not gonna comfort myself and tell myself I did much better compared to common test 1 and SA1. I am gonna scold myself fucking downright dumb everyday to wake me up. I wasnt born smart, I am not a genius. I need to study.

LIKE SKYSCRAPER

2011-08-29T21:13:00.006+08:00

Woohoowoo! Two days of holidayaye (: Yea baby. Friday after school Yanglaoshi, the older one treated us Swensens! YEA She damn generous man. At first is Macdonald one, but too many people, so went swensens (: Wahlao she dayum rich leh, been to more than 10 countries and drive a mercedes and live in a three storey house. *ENVY* I hope to be like her when I grow old LOL Dont want her to leave school leh :( She's a good teacher.

Saturday morning went to see the sec 2 sc teachers day practise. I swear they are damn enthu and cute LOL But my stomach is giving me trouble super pain :( I even fell down while walking to our venue LOL Fail, still have a cut thats dayumn pain :'( Decided to cab home at around 11 and prepared to go out to meet mai babes :D

Off to a flea at Singapore art musem. Bought six clothes and a ring for $50. Quite cheap right! Yea kinda satisfied :D Off to Haji lane after and went to Icecream man. I like that place (Y) Its like a playroom for customers LOL Their price quite reasonable too! Awesome day out with Huishan, Fengting, Jiaenn and Minghoon :D SMILES~

Sunday was family

day ohohohoho. Went to niece's 1st month celebration. Nothing much to say.

But I got kinda pissed when my mum keep trying to tell me I not pretty like Sanjie -.- I know i am ugly, but you dont have to tell me straight in my face. I have feelings too mind you. ANW went Ikea afterwards. I got a new chair and pretty box for my room :D Oh yeah. Ate their awesome meatballs and apple crumble. Mum bought home the hotdogs too!

TODAY~ 9am went to help out with the T-mazing race taking place on Teachers' Day. Uhuhuh. Went off to dance practise after that. Then piano lesson was actually at 430, but aunty may forgot to tell me change of timing -.- Waited for half and hour then off to fengting's house. Was suppose to make cards for teachers, but I am so tired so I just slacked and nua here nua there LOL Walked to Aunty may's house for lesson then. Ohh her youngest son cooked prata for me! Awww touched, too bad he's younger than me LOL

Cant wait for Friday to come CAUSE IT'LL BE HOLIDAY NEXT WEEK! WOO SHIOCK AHHHH yeap I hope I dont waste my holiday though. FIGHTING! Tmr whole day shall spent more time with my bed yea (:

ONLY EXCEPTION

2011-08-26T22:52:00.002+08:00

OH HELL YEAH. No school till Wednesday (: Gonna go shopping tmr with Huishan Fengting Minghoon and dk still got who (: Cant wait to buy new clothes mannnn YAY (: Gonna spent all my money i saved last month LOL Anw gotten back results for 5 subjects already. I FUCKING FAIL MY HIGHER MOTHER TONGUE TT So dayum sad, chinese used to be my best subject. SIANNN Gotta buck up!

Anw, hope teachers day performance will be a success, and also the whole programme going on on thursday (: My mum and sister pissed me off just now and they triggered some emotions and caused me to cry -.- LAME. Seriously I can never make my parents proud of me. No matter how well i do for ballet, piano or studies, they just nod their head or ask me to do better or why cant score higher... I doubt they even know I am the secretary of SC and head of CCA OH WELL. I shall give up trying to impress them but try to make myself proud (:

After common test seriously damn tired. Today finaly a day for me to get my well deserved beauty sleep! Starting from a week after next, I am really gonna CHIONG AH :D

Cant stand people who take on responsibilities and yet arent responsible. Seriously? Especially when you're suppose to be the one setting a good role model and all and yet, you let others see your true colours. Sense of shame have you any, pushing all your jobs to other people, not sparing a thought for them. Its not that we're what, not your friends, or talking behind your back, but its because we are your friends thats why we want you to do better. Sigh, cant do anything much anyway. OH WELL

OKAY I shall go put a mask then go sleep. Pimple popping everywhere LOL FAIL! GOODBYE!

Because we're human beings

2011-08-24T23:34:00.002+08:00

ITS BEEN `123456789876543 YEARS SINCE I UPDATED MY BLOG.

Ohwell, i think my readers went down to 0 anyway LOL I dont even come to my own blog. BUT its cause I made a promise to myself to concentrate on my studies, so yeah (:

Basically Saturdays have been NDP rehearsals and its finally over. Kinda happy but sad at the same time. Common test two just ended, gotten back 3 results already. Very scared for the others cause sigh, just scared :( Seriously I hate it when people say "Aiyah you also say scared scared then will do badly, come out results also good one" Its not that I am trying to 'show off' or be a bitch or irritating or what. Its that i have really no faith in myself cause this year I've really never done well. You cant blame me for insecurities for myself.

You know what gave me a wake up call? People looking down at me. Yeah I got bad results and class position was like at the back and stuff for the beginning half year, but thats cause I dint put in effort and complacency caught me off guard. Well you can say that I am stupid and whatever, but just dont fcking look down on me. Because not everyone's as smart. Oh wait, continue to look down on me, cause it only makes me wanna do better. OKAY enough of rantings, sorry its just something thats been kept in me for quite long.

Someone really pisses me off just now and I actually typed a truckload of words but backspace it all away. Because since young I've been taught to 拉回眼前. To look back and think why did it happen. And I learnt to forgive and forget easily because human beings are just naive ppl that dont actually know themselves. I SERIOUSLY WANNA RANT IT ALL OUT BUT.... *breathes in breathes out*

Super busy these days. Argh I thought I could have a good sleep after common test but guess what, I've gotten less x.x Oh well..

I really hope I pass chemistry, but I doubt so :(

P/S Still thinking if i should give, i think maybe not

P/SS Maybe I should stop being a good friend, or maybe a bad friend to you

P/SSS I finally know what you think of me

P/SSSS HAHAHA Just kidding I shall stop here :D

Cheapskate

2011-07-19T10:42:00.002+08:00

I dont understand why people in this world is always trying to bring each other down and trying to take away their happiness, their everything. And I really hate and despise (i seldom use this word) people that doesnt appreciate your and people that is always trying to make use of you and people that is so cheap, always trying to find benefits for themselves. --To be continued-- teacher came in already LOL

the voice within

2011-07-18T00:27:00.002+08:00

Currently lying on my comfy bed listening to christina aguilera's the voice within. Her songs are all damn awesome. Okay anw I just finished doing some, SOME only ah, emaths. Cause there's test tmr :( shitzxc I just remembered I haven do one chinese article :( oh dayum, no mood do hw already lah. Still considering whether to go watch movie tmr. And shld I watch monte carlo or harry potter? More to harry potter though even though I am not a fan of it and always fall asleep during all the show HEH BUT Its like, been with us since childhood, how can miss the last chapter right? The ending of the era already. On a second thought, leightob meester is starring in monte carlo, SHITZXC How now brown cow :( scarly I decided not to watch any and go home do eng lit LOL no life ttm. Ahhhhhhh

Been choreographing teachers day dance for international dance group. Hmm its kinda cool for me since we seldom do these kind of performance. Hope it'll be a success yea. Sat morning went to watch the sec two councillors dance. They damn cute uh! Its like can see them trying damn hard! Supet enthu! I like. But I keep getting bullied by some of them :> LALALAA So many tests this week. I am gonna die die die

Lips of an angel

2011-07-05T20:51:00.002+08:00

FREAK MAMA

School just started and obviously, from the lack of post you can see how busy I am. Yes I cant promise frequent updating already, but fear not! I will still come and blog whenever I have the time! Yes baby I will! But I doubt there'll be much pictures though, maybe random ones from holiday (: OKAY I need to be a good girl and finish up my homework and do some revising already. So goodbye, I love my busy life, no idea why HEH

Wildest dream

2011-06-27T21:40:00.003+08:00

Sometimes the pain hurts so much

I can no longer feel

Sometimes the truth hurts so much

I can no longer cry

Sometimes my heart hurts so much

I can no longer live

I always dreamed of you and me, walking hand in hand down the beach barefooted.

With a heart filled with love

Our love

And conquering all kinds of pain together

Till we no longer know what does hurts mean

I guess the world, my world is only filled with loneliness

Never once, never will it be filled with memories that'll last

I am strong, I am tough, I am fine

Nobody knows how vulnerable I am, but then again

Maybe I do not want anyone to know

Its okay I have myself

I have my half filled heart

I have a complete world

Whom only I have been there

Whom the only person who existed there

Is me.

Merry go round

2011-06-27T19:36:00.003+08:00

Thurday went out to bugis with xiaoyanrong, fengting and yeewah! Hehe spent close to about 100 bucks in less than an hour, AGAIN. And I am like a broke now TT Sad life sad life. I wish I had unlimited amount of money. Okay who doesnt :(

Can I dont elaborate on the next post? Cause I really wanna go revise my work. Shall just crap a little here and there (: Did finish stuff for SC meeting tmr. Surprisingly Mdm Yeo dint chase after me this time. Maybe she already know my style of last minute but acceptable work HAHAAH

Friday went SENTOSAAAA! Yea whats holiday if you dint go to the beach huh? Went with fengting priscilla xiaoyanrong and yeewah. Quite fun uh, it was actually the first time I really sun bathed. And I can tell you its ultimate shiockness, just that my sunburnt was really really super duper pain the next day

My holiday ended well (Y) So I shall start my school work well too! (: BYEBYE

2011-06-26T22:53:00.001+08:00

NO TIME TO BLOG!

I spent too much time surfing the net. SORRY TT

TOMORROW KAY. PINKY PROMISE

Hopes

2011-06-26T14:34:00.003+08:00

I am gonna blog later in the day! Just let me finished all my holiday homework first kay HEHE
Skipped tuition just because school is starting tmr and I wanna prepare for it.
Yep, I am gonna keep my promise and really concentrate on my studies yea.
Wanna prove to myself that I can do it, hopefully (:
Soooooo I shall go do homework now. Loves!

Heyaye

2011-06-23T18:02:00.005+08:00

SC TRAINING WORKSHOP! :D I kinda think it was okay over there, not that boring, just some times only HEHE times where some big shots keep talking and talking like there's no tomorrow -.- and wasted our time. Some more I had to rush down to family chalet, piss me off super much.

Really had fun playing games organised by some sec twos. Especially the blind folded one. Was working with Jessica to complete our task. Can really work well with her :D

Oh and Ms Darwina damn cute, HEHE couldnt elaborate much cause its personal LOL

Like I said, I rushed down to downtown east for family chalet (: Its was quite fun, cause I have awesome cousins :D Yeap

Played poker with 3 other cousins, one my age, two younger, but all guys LOL They damn retarded but cute, totally made my day. My cousins that were older and female went to sleep, leave me alone, and I dint wanna waste time sleeping, so yea, played poker with them! They were such jokers! HAHA Played til about 4am plus. Bad thing is I gotta rush down back to school again tmr morning for training -.- Then rush back again for bbq LOL Two fun days though

Gone with the wind

2011-06-19T22:28:00.002+08:00

Hugashaga hugashaga hugashaga HU! Okay lame. I need to get down to my bed asap cause next week is gonna be a damn hectic week! Monday 9-5pm SC training workshop, sian ttm, hope its fun :( Then chionging to family chalet. Tues 9-5pm SC workshop AGAIN. Decided to skip ballet and go for bbq on the 2nd day HEH Its holiday what! Starting of school term I will become a nerd already, gotta make good use of last week!

Wednesday most probably going out with crazy people (: Its either off to iceskating or sentosa, then go watch LADA LAND! I cant wait. I wanna scream like nobody's business. But I doubt i will scream, I will just be over there like, omg omg, *close eyes* Thursday SC workshop AGAIN. Fml man, last week still must like that -.- FRIDAY Finally an 'off' day. It shall be chionging of hw day and then ballet. Saturday whole day dance and then Sunday, and then. OMG DISASTER. SCHOOL STARTS. FUCK

Thats just how pathetic my life is. Yea, oh and I kinda vow that I will really workhard and stop saying i will study but end up not. So kudos to me for at least making a determined decision (: Hope I can follow through my plans though. OKAY I shall go iron my skirt then pack my bag then sleep. Or read my storybookie. Gonna ton at chalet tmr HEHE Lovelove!

Infatuation

2011-06-18T00:06:00.003+08:00

Nomnomnom, just finished eating two slices of cold mango! So shiock, I love cold mangoes! :DDD was chatting with fengting just now on msn, she never fails to entertain me though sometimes she's so evil! LOL anw, had Dance today, was almost late but imba me wont be late one kay! Hehe (: I thinking I am getting lousy :( I mean my body, becoming so lousy, I dont like. Anyway my go-over almost there already luh, but my feet sometimes still was slip when o land >:( angry bird. Its okay I will succeed!

Tmr whole day have Dance AGAIN. Yea sad life. I prefer going ballet thrice a week then this :( oh wellss, going khatib mac early in the morning to study first with fengting and xiaoyanrong before heading to school! Hope I can wake up yo (: nightnight, I shall go have my beauty sleeeeeep

Awesomeness overloaded

2011-06-17T20:46:00.006+08:00

I think the best friends you can ever find, is when you are in primary school. Cause no they dont judge you, everyone is equal, we grew up practically in each others life. And yea, the most embarrassing thing you did most probably they already have seen or know it already. KAY Enuff of crapping, I am just trying to make you jealous that I have awesome primary school friends HAHAHA Anw, yesterday~ headed downt to marina barage, yea we're early and there aint much people at first. But horhhh, only Kelvin brought kite, and its cheena kite AHAHAH See the pictures and you'll get why its so funny~

See, thats the cheena kite LOL The highlight of the start

Miaoxia and Kelvin trying really hard to fly it LOL

And thennnn, the sun is so scorching hot that its burning us, so we decided to move in to the shelter and started playing monopoly deal HAHAHA Hey its fun~

Seeing many kites flying in the sky is damn pretty, not in pictures though, they just looked like some dots here LOL

And we change to the game of ban luck. Starving the whole way through cause we dint bring any food that can keep us full, neither did we eat anything since morning~ decided to go to the bus stop to pick up dearest Jansen Li Jiahao LOL And finally we got a realy kite! But its so ugly that its so funny, geddit? LOL yeap so we fly fly kite and idk why its so difficult but kent manage to fly it in the end :D But then some purple shirt bitch came running his way and then the strings got tangled and ours broke, make kent so angry LOL Slack a few while and Jiahao and Miaoxia decided to sell the kite since we wanted to throw it away, hey they sold it! AHAHA

Headed down to Cityhall for dinner, yes food at last! Couldnt find a place to eat in Raffles, ended up walking a long way to Suntec. LOL They are so hungry they look so shag~ I think i hungry until no feeling or its cause I am used to going hungry for the whole day last time HEH Had a fun time walking with Jiahao and we ended up becoming sisters LOL Going googoogaga over the super sexaye Chuck Bass!

Finally decided to settle in Pizzahut! Saw a family that worships Michael Jackson and the Father and Daughter dresses up like him! Pizzahut have a super nan ting happy bday music -.- Eww munch munch chew chew. LOL Kent sat beside me and Jiahao and he couldnt stand us cause we're being such aunties HAHAHAHA. Finished and headed off~ Miaoxia suddenly feeling dizzy so we got a coke from MOF which costs Kelvin 2.80bucks, so ex right! And we sat at the staircase letting her rest while we play a game of monopoly deal LOL

Trained home~ Had funny conversation topics on the train. The hightlight it talking bout horror movies and talking bout ghost. They damn cute uh! So scared HAHAHA I remember I use to have phobia of eery stuff, like really really scared, I looked out of the window and see the dark night I will cry one you know! And I've got to follow my sister all around the house cause I cant be alone LOL I cant even sleep in the dark cause its just too scary for me. I think its like p6 or sec1 and I started being fearless of such stuff. Not really fearless but not really scared already, of course sometimes will still a little la LOL BUT i amma strong girl now *shows flabby muscles* Finally home feeling happy, but with aching legs. Cant blame me, getting old~

ACHING LEGS

2011-06-17T00:21:00.004+08:00

YES I am back from Marina Barage!

My leg is aching and I am super tired, but I doubt I will post tmr morning cause I gots cca for the whole afternoon, so yea just alil update (: see the ugly kite there? HAHA Its ours, but its so damn cute right, I know HEH I really have really awesome primary school mates that I feel so fortunate, so many friends I know seldom get together with their primary school friends already. We're just plain awesome :D OH YEA dont be jealous, I know you are (:

You lost me

2011-06-13T21:25:00.003+08:00

An ARIES female will never forgive you if you fail to fight for her.

ARIES Biggest strength: Your courage to overcome fear

Biggest weakness: Not finishing what you start

It hurts us so much that we can feel the pain no more

Feeling numb, feeling sore

What we need

Is to die inside and

rise from our ashes

and become a new person.

I think her make-up is exquisite! Like damn nice. Her white swan makeup also very nice, but I couldnt find a nice picture LOL I find myself irritating. As in idk why but I will always find people getting annoyingly irritated after I became close to them. But of course I will keep to myself, but then after I will be fine with it and its like back to normal. Okay I am weird HAHAHA Okie just a random post. HOPES SOMEONE GOES BALLET WITH ME TMR. PLEASEEEEE

I carry alot of scars

2011-06-13T18:18:00.007+08:00

HULLO I AM BACK. Yes yes I know its been a long time (: Dint update at all during June. WHOOPSIE But hey, see i change my blog skin and posted with pictures! :D Actually my holiday is really boring :( Yes first week practically everyday go back to school. Oh we had our sec one SC selection already, couldnt say much though HEH. Dance has sort of officially started when holiday started. Started on thurs, second last day of holiday. Seeing a leader lead seems so damn friggin easy yea, but well, being a leader is real difficult. As in if seniors dint start training me last year, I bet I will be at a lost in everything. ANW damn did i mention before i dint wanna join NDP? Yea I am tired of all the mass performances for big events. All i want is nice stage performance :( No choice but to join in the end. Or my holiday would be wonderfully free.

Went wild wild wet with dance ppl on i forgot when HAHAHA They are damn hilarious ppl. Had a fun time ranting bout people while we float around aimlessly~ Stupid sandrina say she very scared of me D: And not to forget xiaoyanrong too. WAHLAO i got so scary meh :( I thought i changed already. I know I not as fierce as last time los. HMPH

I LOVE TAIMEI IS DAMN NICE! :D Yea its located at the back of of Bugis street. Heard from many people that their fries damn nice too, i shall try the next time i go there (: I know the pitures very blur, too lazy to go photobucket or change jpg into png, so yea you can go facebook for better qualities LOL

Priscilla grow super tall I tell you! I remember I used to be taller than her in sec one D: Oh well. Actually I dont really wanna grow taller anymore, quite happy with my current height, though I dont mind growing another 1 or 2cm more :D

Watched some movies during the holiday, highly recommend Burlesque and Killers! ITS DAMN FREAKING NICE I TELL YOU. My new current idol is Christina Aguilera :D AHHH she's awesome! But idk how come she gain so much weight suddenly recently D: But nevertheless, she's damn talented! Cam Gigandet also starring in Burlesque and he's damn hotttttt. So much different from twilight! Ooo i watched twilight yesterday, wasnt a fan of it and never read or watch the story before, ytd was the first time watching it, I think its quite cool :D Huhuhu if only all the guys were like Edward Cullen *faints* Back to topic. Killers is all bout love, guns, romance and blood. Its nice! Hilarious tooooooo :D

Dint go ballet for last week cause of ndp :( Most probably going tmr, but nobody accompany me TT I dont like being in class without ppl i know. But then again, I grew damn f.a.t that I cannot tahan anymore. Last friday went swimming with mummy, swam for like 14 laps only then very tired already ~.~ lucky stamina dint drop that much HEH i like my skin colour now! Its not very tan but still tan LALALAAALA

Went pengting's house to choreograph dance for their PSLs, see I so kind LOL No la, is i nothing to do HAAHAHAH video-ed ourself with her webcam, DAMN FUNNY! One whole day wasted there~ better than nuaing at home luh, at least i got perspire HAHA. Anyhow suibian dancing also can sweat! Pro or what. OOOOO Went Buddy Hoagies for lunch on saturday before dance with fengting, yeewah and xiaoyanrong. ITS FREAKING NICE! I shall go there more often HURHUR.

Yes i have decided to blog more often, regardless of random things or what. BUT you cannot stop coming kay HAHAHA Okay i shall go, erm nua again. BYEBYEBYEBYE LOVE LOVE

2011-06-13T01:38:00.003+08:00

Okie, I REALISE I HAVEN BLOG FOR ALMOST OR MORE THAN TWO FREAKING WEEKS. Omg I am so sorry :( please dont stop coming. I will post many many tmr kay! Lovelove :DDDD

2011-05-31T21:21:00.004+08:00

I though I was gonna die at home yesterday out of boredom, lucky for all my lovely seniors that came to meet me. Huhuhu :D happygirl96 yesterday :D Nua-ed until 12 plus then went to prepare. Super angry cause couldnt find my shirt that I bought not long ago D: I suspect my sister took it and wear -.- angry bird. Anyway, trained down and met cinyee, elvina and sylvia at bishan :D

Went to eat the oyster meesua at the basement, SUPER NICE I TELL YOU. Must try! Always eating when I go out with them one. LOL when you go bishan, of course must go buy koi la~ HEH Saw Valerie on the way there, moqi ya know! Ended up slacking and crapping at j8's open space, was teasing sylvia of her big boobs HAHAHA

Cinyee went home early cause she's gonna go chalet and perth straight, so good right :( Went walking around j8 with banana and sylvia (: And headed to town with sylvia. She was suppose to go home, but i dragged her to town LOL. LALALA Bought two shoes and a nice shoe bag~ Went paragon to find crystal and she treated us cheesecake. Too bad i dont like cheesecake LOL

Nat came to find us after, and off to wheelock's nydc. cause I wanted HEHE. Had my beef lasagna and its damn awesome! But my chicken flew off, and i dint even have one bite at all! LOL Phail. Went to Big O which was opposite nydc for deserts. OMG THE MUDPIE IS DAMN AWESOME. And the durian with chocolate cake! Yes, we eat alot, so what? LALALA

I dont feel like blogging actually, sorrrry lahhhhh. Just very sian nowadays, dk why. Dance tmr, so nothing much. Went school today for two meetings, usual stuff. OKAY I SHALL SLEEP EARLY TODAY. they say you'll be slimmer if you sleep better. KTHXBYE

2011-05-29T23:36:00.000+08:00

I FEEL SO FUCKING IRRITATED BY MY LIFE RIGHT NOW.

RAWR RAWR RAWR.

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

SUPER DUPER PISSED OFF.

BY NOTHING IN PARTICULAR.

I THINK I AM GOING CRAZY

KTHXBYE.

WISH YOU WERE HERE

2011-05-29T17:01:00.004+08:00

I got no new pictures! Sian..

Really got no mood to blog recently, dont have the feel you know (: Okay anw, Wednesday was school's charity bazaar. Yeap our class got best decorated and earned the most. Blah blah blah. Rainbow centre kids came and played with them again :D HEHE There's this cute little boy, Cowen, he hugged me and asked me to carry him, I was like.... LOL But he's damn cute with his spectacles and dimples. He's 8 years old but to me he's like 5 (: kay, sort of a success yea :D Thursday dint go school, woke up in the morning feeling super sick, no strength at all D: But had to drag myself to school in the afternoon for cca :( Friday last day of school~ Woohoo

Went for ballet on Friday, and this is what happened:

I was typing my hair in front of the big mirror, than a junior went to pay fees to Ms McCully, and Ms M was like"Good job ___ You got distinction for your grade 5! You got __! Come gimme a hug" I was sitting there staring at myself in the mirror, looking at my jaw dropping. I was like wtshit?! RESULTS ARE OUT. OMF

G. My heart going to drop out already, I haven recover my composure and Ms M suddenly "Ms Ong LiTing! I am so proud of you, you got distinction for your grade 8! You got __! Good job, come gimme a hug too" I was smiling like an idiot and she hugged me damn tightly. Almost cried from happiness, HEH Cause its like, grade 8 so damn difficult, somemore Ms M said one school only got 1 distinction out of their grade 8s, and their teachers are damn upset. PHEW. I dint really have any expectations cause, well you never know (: Though my distinction isnt super high, but at least I did reach an 80 :D FALALA. OH and my crazy partner got 98 -.- But she deserve it, everytime she's the only one practising at one corner. Considering the fact that I am dancing after my pro partner, my result are quite good already :D LALAALA SHO HAPPPPYYY~ wooooooo

Okay enough bout my ballet result (: Wish goodluck for those that havent gotten theirs back! But we got 11 out of 13 distinction, so yea :D OH HOLIDAY HAS STARTED. ISNT IT JUST WONDERFUL POWDERFUL?! *hops around in circle*

Uhhh I have nothing much to say, yea blah, actually my holiday very free one, but got forced to join NDP -.- Teacher kaopei me. So irritating RAWR. Fuck it man. Kay *breathe in breathe out* Anw, if you wanna go out or anything, DONT FORGET TO ASK ME ALONG HOR. Or i kill you! Just kidding (: I wanna watch insidious and go marina barage fly kite! Ohoh and got ECP and Sentosa too! Anybody?!?!

ONCE UPON A TIME

2011-05-24T22:21:00.003+08:00

I seriously cant stand it, nor sit, or whatever shit.

You have issues, serious issues. I dont mean you only, I meant everyone. Or is it just me? Everybody is pissing me off every now and then. Like wth?! I dont believe I did anything wrong for you to give me this kind of attitude. Maybe its just the weather that makes me pissed off with every other thing. But forget it man.

Charity Bazaar tmr. Hope its gonna be fun. No plans after that though -.- Still waiting for pengting's reply. Urgh I hate having nothing to do or staying at home doing nothing. And by doing nothing means doing meaningless stuff like reading storybooks or using the computer or watching movies or sleep or nua the whole day. Packing my room is still okay, but you cant expet me to pack my room everyday right -.- Freak. Somemore when I have nothing to do, i usually succumb to food. Damn.

Sorry for crapping and being crabby here. But... I cant tolerate it anymore, i mean my stupid mood problem -.- Usually I wont be pissed off easily or I will just let it go easily. Like i say, must be the weather. Well, anw today went to Rainbow Centre to interact with the kids. Will post bout it next time. Hope tmr's a success, goodluck to everyone.

Urgh, i just saw a tweet that pisses me off. Okay sorry I shall stop being so irritating LOL

I LOVE Y?U

2011-05-22T19:25:00.002+08:00

WE ARE YOUNG WE ARE FREE.

Howdy, cant wait for holidays to come soon! Thing is, I amma broke :( sho shad. Anyways, yesterday as 21st May 2011. Supposedly its judgement day which we're all gonna die, *bang bang bang* OUCH okay now like this but, amazingly, we're all alive and kicking. Isnt it awesome? Well actually I dont mind dying yesterday, considering the fact that I am kinda worthless now. Sigh... Awaiting for 2012 and see what will happen yea. Doing unproductive things in school now cause exams are over, my results are really bad, like srsly can kill myself already. And still, i love literature, though its only A2, but still :D Tuesday was vesak day right? Yea went to makan makan with childhood, not really childhood, but almost there la, friends. HEH

Kay its kinda expensive and not worth it -.- Steamboat at the sembawang road there. The spicy soup is really spicy. Even me, yes me cannot tahan it. LOL Had epic moments as usual thanks to LiJiaHao (: This week no dance again cause laoshi not in SG and ava room cant use :( Sadded. Friday decided not to go to ballet cause I was like damn tired, no idea why am I so tired even when there's like no homework or exams on due. Old? OH YA Omg i freaking scared I got some disease or illness, hopefully NOT parkinston TT my right arm keep trembling, since friday till now. And my right leg too. Like suddenly one, freaking scared, hope it'll go away soon. PLEASE :'(

Kay back to topic. Saturday, went for double class, though the second class only go for an hour and half cause gotta go to watch concert. Was saying bye to Ms McCully as usual then she suddenly say thankyou for your help *smiles* I was like shock cause I dint really help? I went for two classes cause I love dancing and I wanna lose weight HAHAHA But still, got the happy feeling you know (: Hehe. Met Sylvia and went KFC to eat FALALA been weeks since i ate kfc. Then, being as usual lazy, we decided to cab down to NYJC

It was their drama night called "The Grim Affair" It was very cool and damn funny! I like :D went there to support cinyee one, cause there's a part where they came out to dance. She damn sexaye ah LOL And I like their choreography! Damn nice! Too bad our school's dont do this type of choreo :( Anw, after the concert went for supper with Sylvia, yes its damn fattening but damn shiock ya know HEHE Reached home around 11pm. Was dead beat then. Kay this post is getting boring, I shall stop and continue next time. Love ya! OH one more thing, watched black swan already, damn scary TT Still having the creeps even when I am just talking bout it D:

2011-05-16T22:22:00.001+08:00

Its a wake up call. Time to reflect. Ongliting aint gonna be the same anymore. Sorrys guys.

I ALWAYS HAVE

2011-05-15T19:58:00.002+08:00

Hai. Its gonna be a bad week ahead. Cause we're getting back our papers and i am sure i failed almost all subjects :( oh yea, i failed my chemistry. Damn freaking badly T.T still kena traumatized by the marks i got D: super low i tell you. Sigh, why is my science so bad?! RAWR Okay enough of complaining. Pictures below are from study time in fengting's house, yeap we did study okay, alil HEH

Thursday was marking day, what did i do? Oh yea meeting with principal -.- it actually went quite well cause the principal praised us and said he was impressed :D helped with the PSLs for a lil while then off for lunch and home. Did i say i was getting old? Well...

Cause Friday and Saturday went for ballet. And Saturday only went for one class cause I was so freaking tired :( First time gave up going for double class. Sigh. And i can feel the fats sitting on my tummy and thighs. GROSS. Anyway, my life sucks. :(

I DONT FEEL LIKE TYPING NAO cause i am chatting with pengting and need to do dance tee soon, so yea, BYE :D i will update more often!

LOST IN THIS CRAZY WORLD

2011-05-11T19:52:00.006+08:00

I, the super heroine, has decided to save my beloved blog (: Yeap thats right. Well its mainly also because MYE just ended today. Its sucked like hell. And i meant it. And i think I am gonna fail like more than half of all the subjects. Die liao, parents gonna be so disappointed. Its okay, I still have common test and End of year (:

Very long never sit on the sofa and use my laptop already (: Around 2 to 3 weeks? Yea wow. But now my butt very pain :( Anw back to topic. MYE, first few paper study like siao. And its my first time studying so seriously, usually i just read some notes then sleep already. Hai, in the end i dont think i will do well even for those subjects I study :( Last few papers, dint study at all. And i meant it NOT AT ALL. Imagine how i died doing the papers. I will be dead when i get back the papers. LOL

I am getting super flabby, all my muscles like loosen already, damn disgusting. Gotta go jogging and swimming these few days. Damn, need to have a look out on my diet too. Go healthy!
Blah blah blah. Chemistry and Amaths paper was totally a killer. The gunshot went straight through my heart, leaving through the backbone. A hole was left there and the bleeding couldnt stop. Okay this is retarded -.-

Meeting with principal tmr. Hope I dont get my tongue tied yea. Though he looks so cute but still, my pronunciation sucks ttm. Suppose to be marking day. What a spoiler.

2011-05-02T19:50:00.006+08:00

I think, I dont deserve all this luxury
I think, I am taking it for granted
I think, I am not appreciating what I have in life
I think, I am being spoilt and pampered too much
I think, I am not a good daughter
I think, I am not a good friend
I think, other than luxury, I should deserve more
I think, I am such a failure
I think, I need a fake boyfriend (random LOL)
I think, I should go study now
I think, its time to say bye
Byebye (:

2011-05-01T21:29:00.002+08:00

Damn, I think I have some serious nuaing disease :doing practically nothing the whole day with a mind that's always blank.. Errrrrrr yea LOL if only theres a pill to cure this :( exam started and I still don have the discipline to start studying and blah blah blah. OH WELLS

Anw friday was paper one for eng and chinese. Had actually forgotten how much I love to write when I was in primary school, BUT all my skills gone already QQ. All alone at home today, felt so lonely :( mummy went to camp at idk where, dad went jakata? Or is is bangkok? Idk, erjie went tioman cum desaru, dajie went cebu I think, sanjie went back to her hostel... Haiiiiiii should've ask some friends to come over yea NVM

Ytd went for ballet, 230 class damn fun but super challenging, 430 class finally did my triple pirouette aftet like 2 weeks -.- better than nothing and and omfg ms mccully finally say "good ongliting" falalalal the happy feeling :D okay I think I shall start studying, gotta prove to myself that I can do it yea :D

Going pengting house to study tmr, hope its gonna be productive LOL

#given up on you

2011-04-26T21:47:00.003+08:00

Hey there pretties and handsomes, yeap just couldnt stand whats on my mind now and couldnt vent it anywhere else. Anw, currently enjoying the aircon and reading my englit novel which I finally found it just now :D keep thinking today is wed dk why LOL.

Anw as I was saying, I havd decided to be not such a nice and generous girl anymore. I mean whats the point? Especially towards those that dont appreiciate me, well I dont give a damn bout you too. I was too naive and goody-two -shoes last time to be so dumb. Yeap i'll only appreciate those that appreciate me (: FALALALA

What a bitch, I dont mean you, I mean someone else (: okay I shall continue reading my novel. 10 chapters in less than an hour :D finishing soon!

ALL I EVER WANTED

2011-04-24T12:02:00.007+08:00

GRADE 8 2011!

Okay, I am suppose to be mugging but i totally no mood now, so here I am (: Yeap yesterday was a fruitful day cause I bought another leotard, toe pads, and most importantly, MY SCHOOL SHOES :D YAY Morning had emaths supp, i think my test aint gonna be good, ohwell, when was it ever good? Met cinyee and off to bugis. I was damn devastated when I cant find adidas store in bugis, change to Mango -.- So decided to go buy Cinyee's top hats for her dance first.

I FREAKING LOVE THIS PICTURE :D

My helium balloon from Jonit! :D

Yeap then off to costume collection to get my leotard and toepads, lucky they accept NETS cause my wallet is like, only $2 left. Anyway, since its like still early and i haven got my shoes, went iluma and TADA there's adidas AND puma shop :D Hehe, saw three shoes that I like, but one no size, then the adidas one exceeded my budget, so decided to get this puma one that costs only $99 (: LALALA I am a happy girl.

I miss Elvina already! :( Hope her knee recovers soon.

Third bday cake from them (:

Afterwards went to camwhore awhile and off to ballet. Lucky we werent late. The 230 class is full super pro seniors, make me feel so inferior being in the same class as them :( My first pointe class for this year cause dint do during grade 8 classes period. Well, Vanessa did double pirouette on pointe! And Laura did four pirouettes, Sam Sun did triple, Chuqiao did all exercises damn nicely... Damn it man, I SHOULD JUST GO AND KILL MYSELF RIGHT Anw, they shall be my inspiration and motivation to improve in ballet (:

PARTNERS FOR 4 YEARS :D Since grade 5

Ended class and rested for 5 mins and then off to the 4.30 class. It was better during barre, BUT my centre work is damn damn freaking lousy. I cant even turn my double pirouette properly. FEEL LIKE DYING. I think Ms M is dying too cause the class got no pro seniors. Alot of grade 5s and those haven do grade 8 one. Neverm, one week of not dancing make me deprove so much, SO, I must quickly catch up (:

Its Easter Sunday today, I am sad cause I gots no eggs or bunnies :( So sad right, still need to go tuition later. Decided to mug at night since, well I am most awake at night LOL. Dint even touch any books yesterday, felt, weird. HAHAHA First time man! First time I ever felt guilty not touching books on a Saturday, cause usually Saturday is like my, No Need Study Day.

I freaking miss grade 8 already, though its just one week. Wonder how to survive my life without it T.T Cant there be like grade 8 everytime? I need all my seniors to colour my life! Argh, oh well, nobody and rewind time and change anything thats fixed. No point dwelling on it. Anw, ytd finally watched GossipGirl Season 4 Episode 18. Damn why Blair dun wanna be with Chuck, they make me sad. Two ppl who are meant to be should be together right? :(

2011-04-17T14:58:00.002+08:00

Currently stuck in tuition wasting time away~~
Couldnt sleep last night cause I napped in the afternoon for 6 hours LOL. ended up thinking lots of stuff, well mostly just some stuff. Wondering if miracle would really happen in my world, if what I always dream and wish and hope for would come trueeee. Dummdummm dummm....

Dint I mention I watched this show ytd? Yeap it kinda relate alot to me LOL and the ending is what most ppl would want. Anw, no ballet makes me have tooooo much, tooo much time to think bout useless stuff, I shall pay attention now, 1 more hr :( ciaos

/// I just want something nice to happen to me, you

maybe its just my wishful thinking

2011-04-17T00:20:00.004+08:00

Currently a free and aimless bird blogging (: Suddenly everything that I've been working super hard for is gone, as in, over. No more SYF, no more piano grade 7, no more ballet grade 8 :( And now, no more seniors in international dance T.T Okay let me start frm ballet exam first. Wednesday 13April was ballet exam, we're the last day, last group. Dint go school cause I wanna be fully prepared and devoted for exam that day, LOL. Still remember at 12am I couldnt find my exam leotard, became so worried that I cried, mummy still make things worst -.- Ended up 1 hour later, finally found it, PHEW! If i am not wrong, this happened to me the previous year too LOL

Anyway, meet up with Jonit and went to swensens for my breakfast, their all-day-breakfast is totally worth trying! For me it is la, HEHE. Rochelle came afterwards and went to buy easter bunny chocolates for Ms McCully, Laura and Vanessa. Having constipation cause I am just so worried and scared LOL. Decided to go in to prepare, and off we go~In preparation, was really scared till I cannot get high. When Ms Mc is tying my hair, almost cried cause, thinking of it, its gonna be the last time she'll be tying hair for us T.T Manage to swallow back my tears though. Exam past by super quickly, it wasnt my best shot for all the dance but oh well, its over, no use dwelling on it, just hope that I got a distinction. Took some pictures and off to swensens AGAIN LOL Had icecream and some side orders, than chelle and jonit went to school, clara went home and I had to wait for my mum to finish her massage, so went to the hairdresser to wash and cut my hair. My bangs is super short now, ugly, but it'll grow (: I look like sec 2 once again LOL

Thursday had napfa 5 stations, got all A, including my 2.4km run on friday, it was around 12mins plus i think? Yeap. Wasnt very happy though, i prefer primary school, everyone is so competitive that we did the best that we could and compare no. of sit ups, chin ups, etc, and not like now, stop after getting A. Anyway, friday afternoon was dance farewell for seniors :(

Went quite smoothly, but we dint make them cry LOL I think all emotions were given out during the result day, so yea, hope they liike it (: Miss moon ordered 20 boxes of pizzas, LOL damn epic, me and pengting was struggling to carry it up, lucky Aqmal helped us, kudos to him. Certificate giving, phototaking sessions, cake cutting, presents/cards giving. Played games and the time whizzzzz by super quickly, the day is over, seniors officially stepped down T.T

Went causeway to meet mummy and bought stuffs, saw this braun buffel wallet that is uber chio but costs $219, mummy say cannot, too expensive for small kids like me D: I WHERE GOT SMALL?! Nvm.. Felt so useless today, spent the whole day sleeping and using computer LOLWatched this show, no strings attached today, quite nice uh, but sometimes i dont like watching romance, cause it makes me have this empty feeling inside me, but oh well, i love happy endinds, what to do (: Need to chiong hw tmr already, okay, so long, gtg catch my dreamss

Pinky promise

2011-04-09T21:58:00.005+08:00

Back from ballet! (: More photos cming up, cause last week one still with cinyee that old ahma that haven upload!! RAWR. I feel so guilty not doing homework x.x but i pinky promise i will start right after my ballet exam! Or the next day HEHE, Anw, hope jonit's ankle recover soon, exam is only in 4days! No faculty allowed! OKOK Prata at prata house is awesome (: I need to go do some notes and stuff for beloved already. CIAOS

Medals and trophies from sports day (:

HAHAAH Crystal's face damn funneh

I WANT TO GO TO THE BEACH!! AHHHHHHHH

I WANT GO SWIMMING TOO! :((((

2011-04-09T16:04:00.002+08:00

Idk why I cannot upload photos using my phone :( anw, currently on the bus to prata hse to meet ballet babes (: damn, its the last sat we're gonna have grade 8 lessons together, three years past so quickly, still remember I was sec one when we started gr6. Now..... Cinyee's group finished there exam already, mine's the last group on wednesday, dont intend to go to school yea, damn I hope I don cry tmr for our last class T.T

Yesterday was sports day, yeap quite fun uh, cause keep running, no time to slack. Ohoh I hope the victor get well soon from his muscle tear, seems super pain D: anw, won some medal yea, and finally got back the feel for 400m, though its during relay and not individual LOL surprisingly my legs dint havr pains or problem after running two 400m and two 100m. Maybe I should run more, jk! I still don like running as much as swimming. Kay shall end here, 4 more days....

And when you are fifteen.

2011-04-03T12:44:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday to me (: Okay this is pathetic, oh well. Erm, well I dont really expect much this year. Maybe because now that I have grown, I realised that to happiest is found among the simplest of things. Okay, but I still want a new school shoe HAHAAHAHA. And thankyou everyone for your wishes, it may seem simple, but it meant alot to me (: And of course to all my friends and seniors, for all you care and concern these years. Okay la, i have one more wish, maybe two, okay make it three LOL - i want my ballet grade 8 exam to be a good one

- I want to keep improving myself, studies and of course personal attitude

- I want all my family and friends to be healthy and live a hundred of more years with me.

Isnt my wishes simple? :') I think I am so fortunate to have ppl that care so much about me. SOBS. Seconday Three is such an emotional year for me. I have no idea how many times I had cried, and maybe still counting LOL I believe these tears that I have shed is worth it, because it means that my life is a movie worth watching, worth crying over. Yeap.

And I realise I finally got over something/somebody. I find myself so dumb to even waste my attention on it. Not worth it at all. Yeap, was having a funny conver with Jiaenn yesterday HAAHHAHA. Thinking back, its still very funny. Okay the pathetic me have alot of hw to rush. So byebye (:

Wasted

2011-04-02T12:31:00.003+08:00

Huhuhuhu, Thursday was such an emotional day :(

But yet shows how CCHY International Dance Group has bonded together these few years (: Yeap our results were kinda dissapointing, we got silver. Blame it on the judges bad judgement LOL. Actually thinking of it, its quite okay already. Even Nanhua and SCGS got gold only, like usually theirs were Gold with honours los. Well at least we finally gain the principal's respect :D Actually we cried mostly because, our seniors are leaving already. Our mama and papa all going :( Idk how much will this dance group change w/o them. HAI...
Learnt so much from them and they have already become a part of our lives that we cant live w/o. Now that they are going.... T.T Shall not continue or my tears will just flow out unknowingly. So yea, we did our best for syf and is contented enough already, because we know that in our heart, we once fought in a war together.

Oh and my piano exam finished too. Wont get my hopes too high cause I dont think it was fantastic enough :( Now my only hope is ballet exam. 13 April. Damn I cant seem to get over this point to be WOW enough... Yesterday went for sports heat. Been eons since I ran. Couldnt get the 'feel' that I once had when I was in primary school :( And I think my speed is deproving... Well at least I still can run :D

Gonna go have lunch with ballet babes soon, then off for our 4hour class already :D WE CAN DO IT. I think all of us have grown to become such beautiful dancers already (: So I have another war to fight, and then I will mug like some nerd already. Gimme some time teachers, my time is running!!!..............

WE CREATE THE DREAMS

2011-03-31T00:24:00.002+08:00

SYF IS OFFICIALLY OVER! :'( SOBS

The feeling after we dance finish is freaking shiock, like you achieved something amazing and marvellous. Hope we wont be disappointed with the results tmr, though I dare not put my hopes too high! Yeap the audience did laugh, so it means our mission accomplished. Just pray that our movements are neat and the judges like it. So yea, wish us luck okay! Early morning wake up my legs are like wtfomgbbq pain!?@#$$

Almost couldnt move it, still have to ask my mum help me find my ankle guard LOL. Anw reached school and practise for a few times, then its chionging time. Yea, almost have not enough time, but we still managed (: Just that i no time take pictures! LOL oh and I knw our costume very cute, be jealous LOL.
Reached UCC, seniors came to support us, touched :D Principal came too! Like... right! But yea, gave our morale a boost (: Everybody was like super jin zhang, then its like our turn already. Dont know why everytime practise the dance like so long, this time so fast finish, but still (: After the dance sitting in the bus, some senior cried. Sayang sayang! I felt aimless suddenly, like idk what to work for already, and the realise, I HAVE PIANO EXAM. YES FREAK

Yes my piano exam is in less than 12 hours, please pray pray pray and wish me luck! I really really very scared, dun wanna let my teacher down! Okie, its gonna be 1am soon, need to dry my hair and sleep. I NEED ALOT OF LUCK TMR! LEND ME FOR ONE DAY KAY? THANKYOU :D

ENDS TONIGHT

2011-03-27T00:13:00.004+08:00

No photos :( Cause pengting dint upload. Damnnnnn

Anw been super stressful nowadays, yeap but I know I am gonna make it and then I will become happygurl96 already. Results super disappointing, gotta catch up for this term already! SYF is in like 3 or 4 days as well as piano exam. And the ballet exam soon. I think I'll feel like a free bird when my ballet exam finishes, and you'll see OngLiTing mug like siao for the first time of her whole life. Piano aint getting any better :( Ballet is getting from bad to worse, cant expect much for syf, so yeap, hope I can take it when I see all the results. I know I am like super lag, but do you know the Starbucks frappuccino sold in a bottle in 7eleven or ntuc is super freaking nice?! Gonna get obsess with it very soon. My diet plan is kicking in, good job. Okie, time to get some sleep, my face is like some shit nowadays. GOODABYE!

Oh and I finally updated my mixpod (: Enjoy!

Secondary Three Bintan camp

2011-03-26T23:42:00.006+08:00

Trolololol, my camp post from 14 march drag till 26 march. Sorry la really busy, smemore nobody tag, equals to nobody read, so post also no use, for own entertainment only (: Anw camp was a blast. Unlike other schools, our camp is like fun, fun and even more fun. There wasnt any super disgusting or dirty thing we had to do. The only thing dirty for me is the use of utensils LOL Cause idk la, like can never wash properly. Ohoh, maybe the camp was so fun because 3G is just sucha wonderful and bombastic class! Love them much. HEHE

I especially like the boomnet! Like so fun, crashing into ppl and stuff. At the end the boat move and we're like floating around epically HAHAHAAH. Hill trek wasnt fun, but it was nice. I like (: Make us bond with each other more, our class spirit, 100 marks la! At the hilltop still can singsong leh! LOL Not bad uh.

Campfire unsuccessful due to rain, had to perform in the canteen, our performance wasnt good, but we're like zihighing like a bunch of crazy kids LOL. Second night was emo night, i'll always rmb I am sucha good friend that cover my friend with my jacket and make myself drench like some idiot. Harrr Fengting, must remember hor! HAHAHAHA.

Flying fox was epic, i open my legs to wide, and then the landing so fast that i came unprepared. Damn it was still fun and thrilling, got the commit suicide feeling LOL

Sing alot, like really ALOT during camp. No wonder return to SG i have no voice even when we dint really cheer LOL. Yeap, day three came so quickly :(

Inside the ferry was fun (: I rmb yuqi went to the guys toilet at the immigration side there! HAHAHA Super funny. Oh and i was super happygurl96 cause my piano exam got rescheduled. LOL Was hopping around and around. Yeap I love my camp I love my class. FALALALALLA BE JEALOUS KAY! :D

A MOMENT LIKE THIS

2011-03-14T15:22:00.009+08:00

Falala, just came back from northpoint after having lunch with jess, dory and arif (: Physics supp toady, damn my old habit came back -.- I was suppose to meet shan they all at 815 at mac. And I woke up at 830. Got into a cab drove by my neighbour, and he gave me discount! I feel so paiseh can! LOL Anw, was almost, almost late cause the mac service was uber slow -.- Pissed me off, I hate slow service.

Seriously? I really thought of killing myself, not literally, just thinking bout it. How relax I would be, how I would be off from the world, how I would be able to not think about anything, how I would never have to fret and worry ever again. But then again, a life is a precious thing, I should treasure it, yea i know, else I wouldnt be here today. Hah.

Was daydreaming in Mr Lee's class. Fengting writing some taylor swift's lyrics dwn, was giggling at some things we did, cant remember. Had class discussion, turns out quite well I guess (: Had meeting for SC investiture. Thanks to the brillant me, I thought of an amazing appearance for the sec threes and twos. HAHA Anw, meeting again with mdm yeo. Damn, damn damn. Yea loads of things t do, and Idk where to start :(

Everytime I was going to be quite close with some guys, and finally going to get over you, you suddenly appeared again and ruin everything. You dint have to do anything, just say a hi to me and then everything goes down down down. I would compare all other guys with you and figure they werent as good. And then i started becoming distant with them, yea thanks to you. I feel like an idiot. Maybe thats the reason why I am still standing alone, walking alone. I dont know why am i so dumb. Maybe you dont even bother about me anymore, maybe you do, maybe you had already forgotten about me, maybe you're like me, still thinking about me. Well, I just wanna find some guy better than you and then get the hell off you in my head. Please help me and stay away, thats the best thing you can ever do. Or maybe another thing, get your ass over here and kiss me like you never can anymore. Tell me you've been loving me since we met. Because thats what I felt for you, thats what I wanna you to do, thats what I had always been secretly hoping for. I hve been trying to impress people, by how happy I am, how good I had been living. But am I really trying to impress them? Or am i just deceiving myself, i dont know. I feel like dying everytime I see couples, everytime i think of you, everytime you appear. So darling make it quick, end it off or begin with it.

Gonna go return my dued library books and get a good jog soon, needa go burn off those fats. Need to pay $6 for dued books -.- Darn it. Anw, gonna post bout camp ltr in the night or tmr, if I have the time. So ciaos people, give me more time. XOXO

WHERE ARE YOU

2011-03-13T23:03:00.008+08:00

I cant be any lazier man. Sorry to keep my blog so dead, but its getting lively and energetic, starting from NOW :D hehe Camp will be on the next post okie!! Cause its gonna be filled with pics and more pics and some talking here and there :D Its awesome in one word to express it. Yeapppy. Kay, before camp was .... tuesday! Went kbocx with fengting shan and weizhen :D Had a great time with them. LALALALALA

Kay I am too lazy to put it in order and there are more pictures too, so SORRY KAY xD Sing song sing song sing song sing song! Weizhen sing until so nice! (: Anw went daiso afterwards at ssc to buy stuff for camp LOL Oh, before that they went to cut hair, LOL So me and shan was like cam whoring in the shoppy shop.
Nothing much to say uh, i mean seriously, not that I am lazy LOL ANW YA KNOW WHAT?! MY PIANO GOT FREAKING RESCHEDULED. YESYESYESY! OH YEA OH YEA. I AM FREAKING HAPPY I WAS JUMPING AND TWIRLING AROUND AT THE IMMIGRATION PLACE IN SINGAPORE AFTER WE GOT DOWN THE FERRY! *breathe in breathe out* Okie done (:

Well, tmr still have to go to school :( For physics supp and meeting and more meeting. My life is just plain pathetic. OH AND I BECAME F.A.T AGAIN! Damn :(
This holiday isnt gonna be a good one, yeap I know. And I am spending money like siao, dk where all my money flew to :(

*I can solve your problems, her problems, his problems, everyone else's problems. BUT not my problems. Why? Well, I have no idea, maybe just plain dumb and pathetic. Anyone who thinks I have a good life can just go commit suicide. I am the last person on earth that have a good life. I know, I know I am fortunate enough already, but no, I dont have everything I hoped for, i dont have everything that I want, I dont have everything that I expect. So friends, people, buddies, stop treating me like shit, yea it seemed like i am taking it well, but in actual fact, no i am not. I feel like bashing up anybody that treats me like shit. So, go ahead and die. I know I shouldnt be complaining, but I can take it no more. Sorry*

2011-03-08T23:10:00.000+08:00

HELLO
I wanted to blog one. Really! But look at the time now, its 11.12pm alreaedy.
AND I HAVE CAMP TOMORROW! WOOHOO. So yea, gotta sleep earlyyyy! (:
WILL BLOG AFTER CAMP! PROMISE :D

I just need something

2011-03-05T15:48:00.003+08:00

Fck yeah! EXAM IS OVER. Finally can have some decent sleep, decent life and decent concentration.
DAMN ONG LITING IS IN BIGBIG MEGA SUPER HUGE TROUBLE! Secondary 3 bintan camp is on 9-11 march right, and then SO LUCKY, MY PIANO PRACTICAL EXAM IS ON THE 11 MARCH 4.25PM. Howhowhow, I feel like crying everytime o think of it. Damn, both are super important to me and I dont want to give up any of it. T.T Hope I can reschedule!!!! Anw, on the bus now going thomson for ballet (: cca just now was super tiring and both my knees very pain D: lucky it iant some old injury or what, just over exertion on the muscle I guess. OKIE PPL HELP ME PRAY PRAY PRAY SUPER HARD THAT I CAN RESCHEDULE MY PIANO EXAM KAY? ! I love you!

I HAVE NO IDEA

2011-02-27T11:01:00.002+08:00

Hullo.
I dont have much time to blog, maybe later at night.
My life kinda sucks now, maybe you dont wanna know.
Damn I feel like a crybaby, I cried like three times this week.
I dont feel like what I once was,
Strong, carefree, determined, optimistic.
Well I felt like a total failure in class yesterday,
yeap thanks alot to you, you and you.
I think I need to stop, cause I dont wanna waste your time reading
this crappy post.

Yesterday went bugis to buy my leotard and shoes, thanks mummy for accompanying (: Went to make my atm card afterwards. I feel so rich. HOHOHOHO. Well nothing much, I just feel like dying in class. BYE! STAY TUNE KAY!

SECOND CHANCES

2011-02-23T19:23:00.006+08:00

Apparently, Chem test isnt that sucky, and homeworks aint over whelming (: Or at least I have like NO homework at all today. Dumdum didi dum. But I have to rush something cause of someone >:( RAWR And oh my common test is next week! How now brown cow?

Oh i failed my english test. See this year, i think I have already failed 3 out of 5 tests. Well lan me! Well its time to prove ppl wrong (: HEHE Went to run at yishun stadium today with yaani, jessica and nadia :D Had a fun time with them, craziness overloaded! LALALA But but though my stamina improved, my speed decreased like 80% Isnt this just great?

Time to start doing some work. and HELLO? CAN SOMEBODY LIKE TAG ME. Make me feel so meaningless blogging when no one is reading -.- BYE ALIENS

PERFECT GUY?

2011-02-22T20:44:00.005+08:00

HELLO, I am feeling sad, plus depress, plus jealous, plus down, plus no mood now. Firstly, because I am 100% sure I will fail my chem test tmr, so I dont even feel like bothering to go study for it. I shall just fail till I got dropped out of 3G :( Secondly, I was on facebook going through people's profile and this friend of my senior made me so jealous of her. Yea I dont know her at all, just random much. Thing is, this couple is from Raffles JC, the guy is quite good looking and the girl is pretty. And and the guy does so many sweet things for her, damn I shall just continue to be random and post their picture. Damn I feel like a stalker, but its okie, I shall just let you guys be jealous too (: Btw, the photos below are edited by the guy, SO SCHWEET RIGHT? :'(
There's much more but I think ppl will think I am crazy or what, so I shall just stop here (: Anw helped out in today's trial run. Damn girls are running slower and slower LOL well that includes me too. Cant you see all my leg muscles became wobbly already? LOL Had a fun time chatting with Chairat, Fithri, Dory, Joven and Christan in the pb room today (: I love talks like this! OKIE let me go and continue my daydream of a perfect boyfriend HEHE

*Sometimes seeing other couples makes me think of us, or me. If I can one day be like them, if there's really a happily ever after. They say how long you love someone, you'll take that long to forget someone. Well I guessed I wont be able to forget you, cause I had been loving you for my whole life. There's this little hope in me that my dream will one day come true, but what if i've got to wait for a lifetime? I dont think I can afford that. I dont think I can hold on to this love for so long. So baby come to me, and tell me you'll be the one. You'll be the one holding me in your arms, telling me everything's gonna be alright, even when the world is falling apart. You'll be the one to kiss away my tears, telling me you will always be there, even when everything seems to disagree. And you'll be the one at the end of the tunnel, telling me the future is there for us to walk hand in hand, heart with heart, soul in soul. *

Kiss me away

2011-02-21T19:50:00.003+08:00

How many times must I tell myself to buck up to make me REALLY buck up? I am gonna die from my blurrness and dumbness. Someone should totally give me a hand and pull me up from drowing in the sea :( Hello people, I failed my Amaths test by one mark. Isnt this just great? Yea wow. Anw I THINK I SHOULD REALLY GET SERIOUS. AND AS FOR NOW, BYE BYE MISS ME.

ESTATIC

2011-02-21T01:57:00.003+08:00

Hello its 2am in the morning now and I am using my phone to blog (: okie I just feel like blogging. LOL anw I am quite a happy girl this weekend. Cause firstly, my piano is improving! Like yay finally.

Secondly daddy bought me a new grey nike sports shoe with neon, not that bright pink base :D super happy, inculding a shoebag too, like finally dont have to share with my sisters already!! Somemore I dont have to ask for super long, just sat after ballet I was like " daddy I want to buy new sports shoe cause I wanna run and also maybe going to other countries can use and of course going out too" then he was like okie, royal sporting house right? Kay. And then tada~ new shoes :D thing is he let me choose myself and first time dint give any opinions at all! He dibt even bother checking the price or the quality of the shoe, I keep asking which one to take and he just keep saying up to you la :D shiock or what?! daddy wan sui!

Lol kay thirdly, I think both my parents were in a good mood, so I was asking if I can get my atm card already cause I dont wanna keep so much money at home and I like to draw money LOL Stupid reason I know but mummy said okie, next sat do ;D mummy wan sui! LAALALA good day for me! Hehe

And lastly, my ballet solo dint turn out as bad as I thought it'll be. But still super loads of improvements to be made!!! Anw I think I should sleep now, or else cant wake up in time for school LOL it shall be a study week since I got so what I want these few days :D bye! *hops around in circle*

DISCOVER BEAUTY

2011-02-19T00:04:00.006+08:00

HOMEWORKS! Shitass I have super loads of uncompleted homework :( Argh forget it, I shall just do when I feel like it. Well well, nothing interesting much I can say, life's just plain boringg! Had Amaths test on friday, I think I am gonna flunk it, but amazingly I think I can do it better than my first emaths test. LOL Damn emaths >:( Thursday, Friday, CCA day!

I miss those times when I can go shopping whenever I feel like it D: And i miss my bangs!

Laoshi dint come on thurs cause he was sick :( And you know how much I hate it when laoshi doesnt come D: Anw, my stamina deproved like shit, dint have the time to go running or swimming alreaedy, what can I say? Friday was fun, cause Kiliu laoshi came (: LALALA Went high with fengting, huishan, priscilla and meloday, lol epicness overloaded! Shouting names when they were rolling *winks*

This picture reminds me of how much I love cheese! HEHE Actually there're quite alot of things that I like,hmmm :

I am a sucker for chocolates

I have a weird obsession over shoes

I loveeee milk and must drink it everyday

I cant stop buying bags

I cant live without storybooks

I like the feeling of stress (eww? Ikr)

I am attached to my bed

Well, thats all that I can think of for now. LOL You may know me, but do you? (:

Dumdum didi dum. My life is in a messsssssssssssssssss. RAWR But it'll get well soon I promise! Well having aches everywhere now, neck, back, legs, shoulders. Damn and my back is as hard as a wall, having alot of problems with it, i feel so incapable now.

Upcoming stressful events:
SYF international dance on 28 or 29 march
Piano practical exam on march or april
Ballet exam on 13 april
LALALLA And SC investiture on march, sports dayu april, common test march. Well life's just so good aint it? LOL Kay gonna go for double ballet lessons already, since I have grown so fat, just stay happy and love Liting okay? BYE :D

SWEET DELUSIONAL THOUGHTS

2011-02-16T21:48:00.006+08:00

This weekkkkk.... bland and tasteless.
Well, cause I cant catch up in my studies >:( Especially Emaths. LOL Idk why i can do amaths but not emaths D: Sadded ttm. Saturday went Fengting's house to bainian, yeap won some money, not much. Gotta chiong to ballet. LALALA Had to buy alot of things for valentine's day. Luckily I got my atm beside me, of course its my daddy HAHAHA Somemore he good mood, everything he pay (:
Its Happy valentine's day and Happy birthday jiaenn on monday! :DDDDDD Surprised to received quite alot of chocolates and candies HEHE. Anw spent like 4 to 5 hours making the bigbig card for jiaenn for her birthday on saturday, can see my sincerity anot?! LALALA I am proud of my masterpiece. Look below!! And on the right side is the distorted elmo balloon my partner gave it to me :D THANKS JONIT

Stupid fengting passed me the note while I was sleeping during physics D:Had a surprise small bday party for her, yeap can see how happy she is LOL. Tuesss stayed back in classroom to clean it up, super dirty I cannot tahan liao! And of course do hw, I am a goodgirl nao, thanks to the influence of my beloved 3G classmates LOL. But compared to them, i still have alot of hw undone LOL. Anw was having gossiping session with huishan,jiajun, tianzhong and hongda. Come on they aint as innocent as you think! And they're super hilarious HAHAHAHA Unexpected comments coming from them! See my shocked plus amused look :O!

Trolololo I have alot of hw today and I keep getting distracted :( Literature undone, chinese undone, emaths undone D: Die die die. Ohh I went to take passport photo just now, cause the school one I like no hair like that -.- In the the photo came up not very nice also, well at least can see I got hairrrr HAHAHA. Spent $20 on junk, damnnnn D: Should have controlled myself. I CANT FREAKING FIND MY ANKLE GUARD!!!!

*Everyday I go home I was thinking bout you, thinking bout your company, thinking bout your presence. I was hoping to see you, at the same time dreading to do so. I became super sensitive to ppl around me, cause I have this one little hope that you're one of them. Everyday I tell myself I would not see you, its impossible considering how unfated we both are. But it seems like the more I think bout it, the more you appear in front of me. I dont know if its my illusion or what, but I am sure I wont mistake you. Cause you're all I think all night.*

YOU SUCK AND I MEAN IT

2011-02-11T23:20:00.004+08:00

I want back the cold cold weather, not like now, super super hot, then suddenly bigbig rain. I DONT LIKE! >:( And can anyone teach me how to stay awake in class? Especially during chemistry x.x Not that its boring, its just me. And of course other classes like chinese and physics and sometimes geography. The only thing I can do is either read storybook or draw random stuff. LOLLife's been looking up, or at least I hoped so.

YES. NOW. After missing ballet lessons for one week, i think i have gotten F.A.T. Needa go back to the dieting mode already :( OHOH I need to go bath and and sleep already, my piano sucks and I need to practise it tmr morning :( Hope I can wake up in time for lessons! BUAHBYE

Fck my life, why is it when everything is going so smoothly and something/someone gotta go ruin it? Sick of all this shit I am being treated with. Shall just wash my hands off all things. So much for being sucha good friend and nice to you.

WHATTYA EXPECT

2011-02-10T00:51:00.002+08:00

Hello. I think I am a failure in 2011.
I realised its the first time I failed chinese in my whole life :(
I have no confidence for my emaths test tmr.
I am not prepared for piano lessons tmr.
My health is falling.
My weight is increasing.
And I cant control myself D:

I just wanna pass my emaths test. PLEASE OH PLEASE! Did some revision today, but i still think not enough D: I shall continue soon.. Damn feburary is like a birthday marathon. Gonna be busy thinking and making and buying presents. AHHHH I DONT WANT TO FAIL ANYMORE!

A MOMENT LIKE THIS

2011-02-08T19:42:00.005+08:00

I think and think. The failing of my tests papers is a wake up call for me to start being serious and do some work. Yeap D: I felt kinda demolarize uh, but shan't cry over split milk, shall take it as a lesson learnt yea (: OHOH My house starhub cable teevee is finally back! No more mio! :D Not that I have any personal feelings bout mio, just that I think starhub's functions are better and more channel to watch! Like cartoonetwork and nickoloden :DD Hehe

Okie on the left is Happy! Cinyee's dog, he's damn cute right! :D So adorable. I dont know when did I have this sudden liking of dogs/puppies x.x I used to dislike animals, as in try to avoid them la. I think its because of happy then I begin to like dogs. OHNO! LOL On the right is obviously me whose screw have became lose HAHA. Its second day of cny and all relatives gone home already, then like in the living room nothing to do with my dad, so I asked him to take a photo for me LOL Then just nice this bottle of whiskey is in front of me, so just take and pose with it HAHAHA ohoh and I dint know whiskey so strong one, then I dunk down one whole glass of it. Like less then 10mins my face and ears became damn red LOL My cousins also, theirs worse! HAHA

Went Khooteckpuat to study today with fengting and huishan, cause fengting needa go for dental appointment, so just accompany and shunbian los (: Hehehe I like the environment there, not like other hospital, dont even have the smell nor atmosphere! So cool :D Okie enough of nonsense, i did promise myself to start working hard, so ciaos people! (:

KEEP ME ALIVE

2011-02-07T20:22:00.003+08:00

"My heart is like a working machine, once you break it, you have to open it up,
screw it, fix it and make it work again. And I can tell you boy, it hurts a hell
loads. But I can also tell you, I will work better than before, stronger,
happier."

Hullo! I will change my strategy of blogging. OKIE i will TRY TO, TRY AH to blog everyday, short posts and long ones if I have time (: Cause I cannot tahan to see it dead. And I hate going to other people's blog and see it not updated, so I gottat start with myself first yea? (:

My daddy mummy and erjie are currently at sakae sushi now enjoying their dinner while I am stuck at home doing my Amaths. Actually its my own choice (: HEHE Cause I ate at around 5plus, so not really hungry, and I am suppose to be on diet. Especially after gaining two kg after four days of cny -.- I have been failing my tests, even chinese. Okie maybe this is a wake up call for me to start working. I will prove myself wrong! I WILL OKAY. BELIEVE IN ME!

GONG XI FA CAI!

2011-02-06T21:13:00.018+08:00

Another happy day! :D Afternoon went cinyee's house to bainian, happy(her dog) wearing qipao! Super cuteee can! :D And the meesiam very very nice to eat, and I ate like 6 cheese tofu x.x DIE ALREADY I KNOW Nvm, today shall be the last day (: Played blackjack and won some money after half an hour only xD Had to cab home cause gonna be four! Which means ppl are coming to my house :DDDDDDDDDDDD
HEHE Yeap, around 4plus liwen and xinying came, oh and before that erjie's friend came. Their baby damn cute! HAHAHA Okok continue, waited for fengting and huishannnn, ate pizza and started to play blackjack again, Yep my luck super good. They say cause I wearing red fbt LOL! Maybbbeeee hmmmmmmmm...

Jiaenn came shortly, played daidi then went to dining room and played a idk what name game introduced by yeofengting LOL Its nice to play but no good! CAUSE i lose money HAHAHAHA. Ended up playing blackjack again and I keep banluck :D!

Idk why time past so quickly when I am winningmoney :( Camwhore and liwen and xinying gotta gooooooo. Too lil people, so continue camwhoring LOL wanted to take this 'family potrait' cause my house got this antiqueish chair. Was acting solemn but keep laughing SUPER FUNNY. Huishan la, keep laughing... LOL Then we tried the ahlian/ahbeng look. I think I very fail as you can see below LOL

LALAAL Then fengting's dadddd came, they had to go home :( AWWW Leave me at home so lonely... HAI So sad right. At least I finished my eng journal, chem I tried to do but still fail, my maths elearning and emaths (: LALALA I am a proo girl. Tmr, anybody jio me to go play cards/ mahjong? I anything one and super free HEHEHE :DDDD LALALA And ohoh my baby cousin! She super lucky. Cause relative usually 2nd day come my house one, then outside was like mahhhhjong. My dad was playing with her the tiles, she took one by one the tiles for my dad, and then my cousin was like, eh four digits! Go buy fourD. So my parents, cousins, ahmah and aunty went to buy. and the next day IT WAS THE FIRST PRIZE! LIKE WOAH SO LUCKY. She so cute uh, cannot tahan! HEHEH Our family's cai sheng ye HAHAHA

NOTLOOKING FORWARD TO SCHOOL! But what can I doooooo... Just pray for the best LOL HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR AGAIN! :DD *hop hop hop*

2011-02-06T20:27:00.003+08:00

2011-02-05T11:52:00.002+08:00

HOPPPY CHINESE NEW YEARRR! :DD
I AM SO HAPPY THIS YEAR AND IDK WHY :D
Kay maybe firstly, my cny clothes aint that suckish as previous years,
Secondly no school for almost 5 days
Thirdly nobody scold me during cny LOL
Fourthly I have angpaos, like duh?!
Fifthly my sister actually defended me from my mum for letting me drink wine
Sixthly I won money from blackjack, and still counting! :D
Seventhly everything seems to be going MY way
Eightly I AM JUST HAPPY! :D
See I stopped at number 8, means HUAT AH FAFAFAFA! :D
HAPPPY Kay I am going crazy LOL I shall post on sunday kay? :D

ACCUMILATION

2011-02-02T15:49:00.006+08:00

ACCUMILATED PHOTOS! ENJOY! OH AND HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR IN ABOUT AN HOURS TIME! I AM HAPPPPPPPPYYYYY :D

We are never the people we think we are.
We are the ones we pretend, with all
our hearts, we can't become.

You do your thing and I do my thing.

You are you and I am I.

And if in the end we end up together, It’s beautiful.

Stay up late. Strange things happen when you’ve gone too far, been up too long,
worked too hard, and you’re separated from the rest of the world

Emotions, in my experience, aren’t covered by single words. I don’t believe in “sadness,” “joy,” or “regret.” Maybe the best proof that the language is patriarchal is that it oversimplifies feeling. I’d like to have at my disposal complicated hybrid emotions, Germanic train-car constructions like, say, “the happiness that attends disaster.” Or: “the disappointment of sleeping with one’s fantasy.” I’d like to show how “intimations of mortality brought on by aging family members” connects with “the hatred of mirrors that begins in middle age.” I’d like to have a word for “the sadness inspired by failing restaurants” as well as for “the excitement of getting a room with a minibar.” I’ve never had the right words to describe my life, and now that I’ve entered my story, I need them more than ever.

i hate the fact i can’t escape people. you try to avoid them at all cost yet you know you’re going to have to put up with them being around. i know that in life where ever i go there will always be a number of people who i can’t stand from being either too proud or too annoying. i understand that that’s life and people are never going to be perfect, its just i don’t get why a person would choose to be a particular way. i can remember when i didn’t get so bothered about people’s personalities but as im growing up and realizing much more i am starting to dislike people for their personality. mostly its the people i start to get close to. maybe its because as soon as two people become so free with each other, they break the barrier to who they really are. the true self starts to show, even the negatives. i wish that people would realize that.

Well you can hide a lot about yourself,
But honey, what’re you gonna
do?
And you can sleep in a coffin,
But the past ain’t through with you.

I am gonna shou ye today! :DDDD Maybe go watch some shows, continue tumblring and stuff. Today was kinda a great day, school performance was normal, hmmmm OH 3G WON FIRST FOR CNY DECO! Happy ttm :D Went mac with shan,fengting and yeewah... Then to ahma house to baibai HEHE Talked to cousisn who were ex-cchyians. HAHAHA We realised something common, but I shan't say it here. Were gossiping bout teachers LOL. Watch inception after that, sadly dint finish cause I was super tired and want to go home to SLEEP :D woke up and back to ahma house, STEAMBOAT! :D Then ahma keep wanting us to toast her. Ended up almost everyone of us drank wine that daddy brought there HAHAHA HAPPY DAY! I AM HAPPY. I SHALL GO AND CONTINUE TO BE HAPPY :D

YOU AND ME?

2011-01-29T22:17:00.002+08:00

This post shall be filled with words, or at least I will try to make it fill with words (: I am feeling really tired, physically, mentally, any ally, just one word tired. And I am afraid I cant move on, cant keep trying, cant continue working. I am afraid this one day, my world will just stop and I'll just be standing there watching things go by. Well at least now I am still trying, and I am sure I am more fortunate and better than many other people (: This week? I've been skipping homework, skipping study and skipping revision. Because I just give up and went straight to sleep. Because I dont believe in myself, because I am just tired of trying. And I am trying now, or at least later, because I cant do this to myself,I cant just let go and let everything fall around me SO I WILL JIAYOU.
Happy belated/addvance birthday to Joscelin, Arif, Aqmal, and Jasmine! (: Hope you have a good one this year. I hope mine's gonna be! Rushing chinese new year decoration this few days, I think it's a job well done since we did our best already yea. Oh and well, at least one good thing, I got into exco (: HEHE Finally after a long run. Thursday after cca was suppose to go for piano, know what? I can actually be so tired that I forgot i had class -.- And i missed it, my teacher is like worrying about me cause I dint turn up neither did i pick up my call, I FEEL SO GUILTY! Sry aunty may!

This morning, OKIE I WOKE UP LATE AGAIN. Was suppose to meet yanni at 945 smb mrt. Ended up waking at 10am-.- Typical Ongliting LOL. Rush rush rush, went mrs tan's house. The baby so cute! :D Lalalala, talk talk crap crap. Back to smb to celebrate Jas's bday. LOL Only got like so few ppl, oh and Kelvin's puppy super cute! Like baby like that :D Anw, dint do anything much, went home to sleep. AND ENDED UP WAKING UP LATE. AGAIN. Had to cab there cause was really getting late, my money byebye LOL Anw I felt like shit in ballet these few lessons, though vanessa(senior) said very nice for some exercises, I still feel like I am laggin behind the others, like alot, and I am very afraid that I wont score distinction this time round :( -depress-
-Maybe not being together is a blessing, maybe we should stay this way. Why? Because I rather we not be together, then to do like some other couple, we seems so sweet and nice together, but we all know its gonna end, sooner or later, and I dont want to see myself cry, to cry over whats done, to cry over the fact that we cant be together. Because after a relationship, I am sure not many can fall in love with the same person as deeply as before, because I believe the scar cant be hidden, and the pain cant be forgotten. But maybe, us not being togther is because we just dont have fate, maybe its because we're not really in love. Maybe, I dont know and I dont want to know -

I see couples come and go, I see tears dropped to the ground like hopeless water. I dont know what to do, i cant do anything, because its not their fault, neither is the other fault. Its just god trying to play a prank on them, or maybe its just a moment of foolish. I am thinking whether I should be like them or just stay the way I am. I keep thinking during ballet today, I dint came up with an answer, and I think and think, I should stop thinking (: HEHE

DAMN I SHOULD GO DO HOMEWORK AND SO SOME SPRING CLEANING byebye!

2011-01-26T20:43:00.003+08:00

Hehe ho hehe. I havent do homework yet! Because busy on facebook HAHAHAH Anw, I am very de happy cause,, well you will know the reasons soon (: FALALALAALALALALA I am starting to love AMATHS! YAY! Had duty today cause got vips come to our school. And yes it was quite okay, cause we have free food HAHAAH I will upload more pictures when I am free! And and, I am really getting fat :( GOSSIP GIRL SEASON 4 EPISODE 12 IS FINALLY OUT! WOOHOO!

2011-01-22T13:44:00.003+08:00

Heyyyyaye, finally I think i am gonna get use to the life nao.. Like I had no choice but to right? Darnnn. Anw this whole week had been nothing but hectic. Just had my interview for the exco yesterday, I think, it was a disaster :( But ohwell, whats done cannot be undone. So lets face the reality and get back to life. Good news for this week. NO MATHS HOMEWORK! :D

3G IN ACTION!

Actually I have nothing much to say. Cept that my maths is getting out of hands and I dont know what to do :( Just let nature takes it own course. LOL And i shall fail everything. Dum dum dee dum. And i realise I've been getting fatter and fatter. Must be cause of stress and the intake of chocolate for me is double the times already. DIE Kinda looking forward to next week, have no idea why :O I amma super touched ya know! I posted on fb saying I couldnt take it anymore and felt like dying, then my ballet seniors msg me asking me why and said I could always count on them, any problem just ask them for help, cannot be emo. Then yesterday when I went to ballet, they were like "LITING! We're gonna spam you with chocolate!" And then they gave me this chocolate cake and chocolates from marks & spencer! I was so touched I could feel the warm tears in my eyes, luckily for my control it dint spill out of my eyes xD Hugged them and i realise, maybe my life could be in a mess, maybe i would fail in everything i do, but no matter what, there's always them out there, who i could cry to, who i could complain to, who i could count on, who i could believe in (: THANK YOU ELVINA, NATALIE AND CRYSTAL! :')

2011-01-20T21:13:00.000+08:00

ITS SO EXHAUSTING I CAN TAKE IT NO MORE

2011-01-15T22:30:00.006+08:00

And i say, Hey whats up duck, life's been bad, there'd been no time, there'd been no fun.

Yea so what do ya expect me to say? HELLO FRIENDS LIFE'S BEEN AWESOME! (Y) Hell yea awesome like manure! Its just studying, studying, and more studying, okay there's alot of sleep involve too cause cause, I am just so lousy :(

Nothing much to say, just that the cycle goes on, thurs and friday had cca, nothing intesresting, hmmm. Saturday, supposedly today, but its well past midnight, so erm yesterday, I freaking woke up at 230. HAHAHAHA I had plans to go thomson plaza earlier to study, BUT i reached there at 4 plus, wait for all those laate cows, and ended up going to swensen for high tea HAHAHA. So much for homework!

Went into studio B, supposedly to practise, but as you can see, practise indeed xD I feel so depressed looking at my partner dance, damn how am I gonna get good marks with her dancing before me?! Tell me how how how. I NEED TO IMPROVE. Like alot. A whole lot of improvement, you shall see a different me dancing in months to come!

So byebye people, I have my homework waiting for me with pathetic looks. I WILL BE BACK! SOONER AND MUCH STRONGER! (:

CRAP YOU, CRAP ME, CRAP EVERYTHING

2011-01-11T21:02:00.002+08:00

HELLOOOOOOO. School's horrible, terrible, vegetable for me. Well, thats the cause of having a dumb and always the *unable to function right now* brain. Huhuhu I wish I was a smart alect and dont have to study to get good grades. Thats just as impossible as making me start studying, yea i know. I keep telling myself to START STUDYING and STOP SLEEPING. But... my body just keeps defying against me stupid weak wills. Dammit :(

Oh an freak the locker padlock, cheat my feelings, two days already and yet still cannot open, the person says she will call back and what? In the end heard of no nothing froom her, look at the pathetic me below trying to carry my books that weight tons!? The locker should spare me from these sufferings and OPEN UP quickly!I am feeling down right now, like a lost little kid in the middle of nowhere with the sun shining brightly and directing its rays on me oh-so painfully. I looked left then I looked right, there's just withering trees that seems to speak to me, that seems to be asking me to join them, to give up and stay right there and stare as the world past by. I wanted to, to just stop trying and stay rooted, to throw every other thoughts away just to make myself feel better, but another part of me is pulling me back, telling me its no use giving up, telling me even if there's no one out there for me, I had to pull myself along, and prove to them that yes, I can be happy every single moment of my life, maybe not now, but soon, soon I'll be the girl that everyone hopes to be, I'll be the girl that conquers the world, and not thanks to anybody, but to myself. Yes, I will.

Sorry for that whole chunk of nonsense that actually makes sense, I just had to do this, been keeping it for a long period of time, the days of accumilation actually makes it worst, I had to motivate myself along or I will just break down any moment, well the me you're always seeing, jumping around laughing smilling, is just the other side, the side that believes nothing else matters as long as I am happy. But beneath that you'll never know how much I went thru alone, and I'll continue on, cause I aint some crybabie or cowards that surrender to defeat and run into the arms of others complaining, sobbing, only by telling myself I can, I will do it (:

Sorry for wasting 5mins of your time reading that stupid paragraphs of emotional corruption thoughts. I WILL START STUDYING LIKE NOW. OKAY BYE

500th POST!

2011-01-08T22:41:00.005+08:00

*bow down* Apologies all reader. And may I have your attention please, I am gonna make an annoucement.. *ahem* Me, OngLiTing, have officially became a no lifer person since 4/1/2011. So her blog wont be updated that often, maybe even twice or once a week, but please continue to tag me! Cause you know you love me (:

Anyway, first week of school, busy like a bumble beeeeeeeee. Oh first thing first, new class, new classmates, new teacher, new subjects. But I kinda like all these new things cause well, we're all trying hard to becme as one yea :D Teachers overall not bad, only some (shan't name out cause I not that evil!). Student councilors officially put to work! Hope that everything would run smoothly!So, Wednesday afternoon had precamp for sec ones, were there for only like half an hour cause of cca rehearsal ._. like wth right I know but... no choice la.

THURDAY! S10C!!! Kay the day where the committee members as well as everyone working very hard for. Took class 1C! Hehe at first abit irritated cause they don wanna cooperate, but secoond day I begin to love them and they finally start listening, maybe cause I got some time very fierce to them, but hey I apologies okay! :D Campfire was not very well done, I think i super fail :( But well I tried my best yea! Camp ended friday at around 3 plus.

Super tired already BUT still have to go for CCA rehearsal yet again. I was like dying already, everybdy say I looked half dead. LOL After dance I forgot who came to tell us they were playing waterbombs, yea and well acting like, erm perfectly us, me, joselyn,fengting,yeewah and huishan chiong down to play with them. SUPER DUPER FUN! Got drenched from head to toe! Like 100%! (: But well all good things/times comes to an end, I kinda lost count of my time and had to cab down to thomson LOL Super ex cause of peak hours -.- SCAMMER

Reached, and by then I was like 80% dead already. Had a few strands of french fries and two popcorn chicken for dinner and then gotta chiong into studio for ballet. Really dying! And I became super fat cause ballet stopped for two weeks last december. DAMN Luckily its three times a week again! HEHE Yeap, friday ballet super fail D: Saturday, TODAY!! Damn it man had to wake up at 6plus and rush to school cause have cca carnival -.- thanks to my super good daddy, he fetched me there despite havingg to go to work super early xD Anw did the stupid dumbdumb yog performance again, do until no feeling like, like robot... after that had to attend to our booth. Kay we're like super high, kinda fun overall, just tired (: Dint do as well as last year but still managable la.

Ballet again and this time finally had improvements (: Though I am like only 30% ready, but at least I kinda *good ongliting* by Ms Mc twice. HEHE Her praises are super hard to get one ya know, so if you got one, can have wings and fly already. Not looking forward to tmr cause I HAVE ALOT TO CATCH UP ON. Damn homework and all the subjects. I am so behind already. CANNOT WASTE TIME ANYMMORE!! Wish me luck! Hugs and kisses.

Let the night stay young

2011-01-03T22:34:00.003+08:00

So, WHATS UP DUCK. School is starting in less than 10 hours! Like what?! I thought holiday just started :( Anw, Imma proud of myself!! BECAUSE, drumrolls please *bombomboom* I did ALMOST all my homework! Except for a bk review but thats because I dint read any books during the holiday x.x well, AT LEAST I DID MY HW RIGHT! :D Hehe OKAY. Went IKEA with my family ytd, had dinner over there, wa the meatballs there are fantastic! You all should go try! Like really very very nice! Back to topic, spent over 500 hundred plus for useless stuff, LOL and then mummy bought hotdogs afterwards, she's deem to make me grow fat :(

Well, this morning went to school, like wtf I know but had the campfire preparation to do, ended up helping the committee members cause they like not enough manpower and like super busy, I SALUTE THEM! *claps claps* too (: Like everything very rush but still able to make it, lets hope S10C would be a success! :D This whole week gonna stay back everyday after school, thurs friday camp, saturday cca carnival, thing is, I had ballet on friday saturday and sunday, the torturous yet good way to be on diet had started! D: Scared I cmi for this week, well wish me luck that I dont over exhaust myself and breakdown LOL CHOY! Shall try to sleep early today! But i think i will keep tossing and turning, abit excited for school uh, newclassmates, new teachers, oh and cant wait to see the guys in long pants HAHAHA OKOK xoxo!

COUNTDOWN!

2011-01-01T23:14:00.007+08:00

COUNTDOWN! (Y) Yeap ballet babes came down to my house to celebrate :D HAHA Eat damn lots, supposedly it should be our last day of eating fats and many calories and then 2011 NO MORE. BUT I just ate chips, DAMN :( ANYWAY! Pictures not in order! Continue on with the next post kay cause just now i uploaded alot of photos then suddenly almost all disappeared! Pissed me off, so I shall spilt it into two post :D

LAST LAST YEAR! 2009 COUNTDOWN FOR 2010!

LAST YEAR COUNTING DOWN TO 2011!

The two of us just aint interested in truth or truth!

EVIDENCE! Senior bully junior! HEHE

DONT SAY, I know my arabsque very ugly :(

We just cant help it, ya know we're born camwhorers *wink*

Dont ask me what am I doing, seriously? I have no idea. LOL

2011-01-01T22:45:00.010+08:00

CONTINUE!

Ordering pizzahut online! :D

Trying to imitate our seniors, EPIC FAILURE. HAHAHA

After picking up jonit, went to the void deck (:

PILLOW FIGHT!
Poloroids from xmas eve!

Marilyn monroe, NOT!
Truth, or TRUTH!
Own self karaoke in my room, wa they super loud can! LOL

Indian poker! See the disgusting milo, ovaltine, coffee, cerel. WE ADDED EVERYTHING. Loser drinks it! LUCKY NOT ME XD

I had an enjoyable starting for 2011! Hope you guys did as well! Lets all buck up, pull our cchy socks even higher and let the sky be our limit kay! I LOVE YOU AND YOU LOVE ME.

2011!

2011-01-01T21:05:00.004+08:00

HAPPPY NEW YEAR! :D HELLO 2011!

BYEBYE 2010!

//Pictures coming up soon! :D

2010-12-30T23:51:00.003+08:00

Sudden change of dance practise from thurs to wednesday! Went nanhua for combine (: Last minute changes, so quite alot of things never do :( But overall still dun la, just that its super embarrassing x.x actually everytime go there also like that, hai...

Every school did their SYF dances, amazingly our school is the only one that's funny, happy and fun. LOL Others like very serious and solemn, but then I prefer it that way leh, too bad our school's standard not that high, so very difficult ;(

Did you spot huishan's bag? LOL St John's flag day on wednesday, we donated alot alot okay! HAHA Then they keep spamming stickers on us. NICE (Y) And then see my foot there? Yes the whole skin came off and there's like a new layer of fresh skin, like super fresh ya know. LOL The skin came off after dancing syf ._. the second time dance my plaster was hanging off my foot cause it came off LOL Paiseh max!(N)

HEHE Countdown tmr! CANT WAIT. Am sure we're gonna have a blast! Anw daddy finally gave my money! WOOHOO Somemore its $50 more than last year. Double WOOHOO! Super happy! But I have a feeling I am gonna spent it all very soon LOL SELF CONTROL! Hope you guys gonna have a fun countdown too! And goodluck for 2011!

BYEBYE 2010 HELLO 2011

CRY ME OUT

2010-12-28T20:22:00.007+08:00

Overdue pictures with ballet lovelies! :D Places are from before class meet-ups and christmas eve countdown! These people are those that colours my life, I cant imagine life without them, boring, sad, unmeaningful (: Ballet classes are fun because of them too! :D Lets hope in 2011, we can all achieve amazing results for grade 8 yea!

Whole day today is in Lecture Theatre! TIRING MAX. Had meeting in the morning with mdm yeo, damn 2011 is really gonna be a super busy year! Anw had camp cheer 'practise' with Alumni (: AND finaly lunch. Continue with S1OC after that. And then SSC with huishan to daiso to buy some stuff :D

Gonna stay home the whole day tmr to pack my freaking messy and untidy room! And then maybe do somemore homework. HEHE Had enough holidays already! 31st ballet loves coming down to my place for countdown! Looking forward!

OKIE Due to tags people give saying they come my blog everyday to listen to all these nice songs, I HAD UPDATED MY MIXPOD AGAIN. So please come daily for nice music. HAAHHA I try to update every like one month kay (: Oh and I added some chinese music too! Cause its nice! HAHA

SO BRING ON THE RAIN AND THE THUNDER

2010-12-27T20:37:00.006+08:00

2010 is coming to an end! :( It has been a great year, but i hope 2011 will be better! :D

So what does this means? NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS!

-As what the picture had said, BE HAPPY!
-Study hard, harder and even harder
-Lose 3 more kg!
-Stay healthy and have a healthy lifestyle/routine (:
-STOP SPENDING MONEY
-Well, try to be stress-free and cope everything
well enough

Damn, 2011 is gonna be a super busy year for me, especially with ballet exam, piano exam, syf/ dance practises, student council and secondary 3 stuff :( Dont think I would have the time to go out and even hve some fun, BUT i will be happy! Cause isnt that whats life suppose to be? Just gotta compromise with it.

Anw, today was a fruitful day, went serangoon's NEX today to walk walk, apparantly there are shops for us teenagers HAHA. Not bad uh the shopping centre. Went to MOF for lunch, nice :D Spent like $120 today on wallet, pencilcase and some clothes, gonna get money from my dad already! HEH School whole day tmr for meeting and more meeting. I THINK I SHOULD GO FIND MY ENGLISH HOMEWORK NOW. BUHBYE ;D

CAUSE I AM NO SUPERMAN

2010-12-26T21:30:00.008+08:00

Damn it, I miss ballet, and I miss all my ballet mates :(

Anw, I GOT MY PHONE! :DDDDDDDD Super happy cause Daddy got me what I wanted (: For me la, i think its chio and nice, cause my laopa dont allow me get iphone, he even allow me to take Samsung GalaxyS but no iphone, like wth right? But nvm, cause me no business to make, so dont need much use of iphone except for playing games and whats app. And I not very interested in Blackberry, dont ask me why (: Oh HTC came across my mind, but then the good ones all quite expensive, I dont dare ask my dad LOL.
These few days I keep eating and eating and eating, must be because of all the extensive dance practises and ballet classes I had been going, then suddenly stop, causing the body not able to brake in time for the changes D: SORRY BODY GET WELL SOON! Currently watching the Channel U movie 小孩,狗 . I think its one of the nicest among those that I watched la, cause got JessicaLiu, she so pretty! And then got xiaoxiaobin the super cute boy HAHA And the main actor also not bad looking (:

There are some people in life that make you laugh a little louder, smile a little bigger and live just a little bit better

Going out tmr with shanny fengting and shuwen! :D To serengoon's nex and bugis, as said so by them LOL Me no opinions la, Singapore so small, almost like everywhere also been to already. Mummy said Nex quite big, can go there walk walk see see :D I NEED TO PREPARE FOR SCHOOL! And my homework sheet is missing. God bless me. LOL

Dear Girls, If he missed you, he would've made an attempt to contact you. If he doesn't, there's no point in waiting by the phone

ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS, IS YOU

2010-12-25T22:32:00.007+08:00

MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS!

;My christmas was a great one, how bout yours? :D

;Will post as soon as pictures are out!

;Getting ready for school soon :(

;I think I am lagging behind and dont have enough time.

;Buying newphone tmr, hope Daddy buy the SE Xperiax10 HD

YOU KNOW YOU LOVE ME

2010-12-23T22:13:00.005+08:00

I am too tired and lazy to elaborate on anything! Just that SYF training is officially OVER. Something to be happy and sad of, yeap (: Anw, muscle aching all over, blisters forming up. Super tired, thing is MUSCLES ARE GROWING And i am not losing any weight :( Band concert was (Y) Had a great time with huishan,jiaenn,xinying and liwen (: Sorry for the lack of post but dance practise is really killing me! You know you love me!

~~Why cant it just stay the same, no changes no nothing, I just dont like it, yes I dont, because I feel disgusted and I dont like it, end of story.~~

For the love of dance

2010-12-18T23:06:00.011+08:00

INTERNATIONAL DANCE 2010 ROCKS TTM!

Yeap, missing these few days cause I had dance camp! WOOHOO. Thursday was just practise, our hardcore training, this week consecutive 3days 830-5pm, next week 4 days same timing.. Imba right. Yeap, one word summary for the camp, FUCK YEAH . It was actually quite free and easy luh, anw really a big thanks to Joselyn Woo Shi Qi! (: Our SYF dance this time round is actually quite fun and funny, although I still prefer the one that the seniors did, but this is unique too luh :D OKIE Photos are not in order! Credits to Yeo Feng Ting!BLIND MICE!

AND MORE :D

They're PLAYING MURDER!

Watching show, HEHE

My lunch on thurs ;D

I LOOK SO COOL RIGHT xD

After bathing!

In classroom (:

We had a game of Haunted Mission! Abit fail la cause us 'ghosts' ended up helping them instead of scaring them.

WATER PARADE! (Y)

I LOVE DANCE!